WISHES - sunghoon

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐗 - 𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑

-

CHAPTER IX - TOGETHER

"I don't have any parents, I'm an orphan and always have been. When I was born my parents didn't want me and left me at the doorstep of an orphanage, I'm guessing it's because I am permanently ill. To this day I resent my parents and will never forgive what they did to me. In the orphanage, I was bullied by other kids and served as a slave for the workers. Even though I was very pretty as a child I was never given the chance to have a proper family again. People looked at my face, loved me and when they saw that I was quiet, antisocial and depressed they disregarded me like I was a piece of shit. I tried to run away and escape the place but they would always catch me and say that if I couldn't get adopted then I should get perfect grades at school. I wasn't allowed a phone and they manipulated me into thinking that studying was the only useful thing I could do." I took a deep breath and a tear fell down my face as Sunghoon just showed me a small smile and rubbed my head.

"I developed an obsession with studying. I would never even touch a device and if I didn't get a question right or was confused about something I never asked for help, instead I would hurt myself in different ways as a punishment until I could understand the subject. I was able to leave the orphanage 1 year ago as it closed down but I don't think that I will ever be able to properly heal all those scars from my past. As a minor living alone it was hard to make money but I used my writing skills to write lyrics, something I enjoy a lot. I wrote songs for some small/medium artists and made enough money to get a house, food and heating for myself. Every time I try to heal my wounds both the emotional and physical ones just re-open again and become deeper."

"I'm sorry, I must be boring you." I said but Sunghoon quickly cut me off, "Bunny, you are not boring me. We're friends we listen to each other and support each other and right now we both need it." I smile and pick up Gaeul from her position stoking her and laying her on my stomach. "I'm proud of us, going through a ton load of shit like that it makes us brave people with an interesting story to tell," I said and we both broke into a random laugh.

Even though our lives and past were far from perfect I wouldn't change anything if it meant not having him right by my side in this exact moment. "Hoon, we haven't done any of the wishes on the list in a while. We should pick a new one to do." Sunghoon pulled out a photo of my wishlist and read through it before picking one. "How about the funfair one? The Jeju trip starts next week, so we can go together?" I sighed remembering that I couldn't go, "Hoon, I don't plan on going to Jeju. I have to take care of Malteser."

"Why are you lying to me? Don't worry about Malteser, I'll get my maid to take care of him. What's the real reason you won't go?" I broke my eye contact with him and looked around at everything in the room. Of course, I was worried about Malteser but I was also scared. I have never travelled in my life and I was scared of aeroplanes. "Hoon, what if the plane crashes and we all die, or the engines stop working, or we get lo-"