**D1, Be the ONE! We are ZEROBASEONE!***
After debut, idol life is just getting started, and it's our time to bloom.
And so are the challenges...living in a dorm with eighteen people could never go wrong, right? Especially not with some love triang...
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Guilt consumed me daily, weighing heavily on my shoulders like an intolerable burden. It was a secret I had kept hidden from the group, a secret that had shattered the dreams of one of our own. I felt like a traitor, and the guilt gnawed at my conscience with each passing moment.
It all started when I had found out about Lux and Kooyoung's secret relationship. I had shared it with Hannah, our manager. In a moment of weakness and misguided judgment, I had believed it was for the best, that it would protect Lux and our group's future. That it would be our best chance for debut. My best chance.
I had been selfish and stupid.
But instead, my actions had caused irreparable damage. Hannah, upon learning about the relationship, had made the decision to drop Lux from the final debut lineup. It was a blow that shattered Lux's dreams, and it was all because of me.
Every time I saw Lux, I could barely look her in the eye. The weight of my guilt suffocated me, knowing that I was the reason for her heartache and disappointment. And worse, I had to pretend that everything was fine, that I wasn't carrying this heavy secret within me.
As the days went on, the tension within our group grew palpable. Lux should have been here, practicing for our debut with us. Not coordinating everything backstage. The others couldn't help but notice that something was off, and I could sense their questioning gazes.
One afternoon, while we were gathered in the practice room, Gunwook, my number one observer, approached me. His eyes held a mixture of concern and curiosity. "Is everything okay, Gio?"
I averted my gaze, unable to meet his eyes. "I'm just dealing with some personal issues. It's nothing you need to worry about, Wookie."
Gunwook's brows furrowed, his voice filled with genuine care. "Giovanna, we're a team, and we're here for each other. If something is bothering you, you don't have to face it alone. We can help. I.. can help."
His words pierced through the walls I had built around myself, stirring a mix of emotions within me. The desire to confess and seek forgiveness warred with the fear of the consequences. I took a deep breath, deciding to test the waters and share a fraction of my burden.
"I...I've been feeling guilty about something," I admitted, my voice barely above a whisper. "I made a mistake that affected one of us, and I don't know how to fix it."
Gunwook's expression softened, his voice gentle. "Sometimes, talking about it out loud is the first step towards making things right. If there's something you need to share, we're here to listen."
Tears welled up in my eyes, and I felt a glimmer of hope that perhaps I wasn't alone in this struggle. "Thank you. Your words mean a lot to me."
Even after all we shared, he still cared enough about me to offer some well-needed advice and support. I didn't deserve any of it, not after what I did to Lux. Yet, Gunwook didn't know about this.
He nodded, his gaze filled with empathy. "Remember, the truth has a way of surfacing eventually. It's better to confront it than to let it consume you from within."
When did he become such a wise Nostradamus? He must have been hanging out with Hao too much these days.
Yet, his words resonated deep within me, and I knew he was right. It was time to face the consequences of my actions and find a way to make amends.
With Gunwook's support, maybe I could find the strength to reveal the truth and begin the healing process.
