"Why are you mad?" My question came out in parts, heavy almost, as I worked on slowing my heart rate, which seem to have sky rocketed after whatever that was that we just did.
With heated eyes his hands pressed me closer to him "Mad about how I sho...
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MY HEART WAS skipping at the thought of the beach yesterday. Amongst all the butterflies as I made my way to school there was still a sliver of guilt brewing about how I had left things with Derek thinking he had touched me further than he should've. Thing was it was only not true. If anything I only wanted this more so I planned to let be shown today.
I even had an idea to repay him for yesterday - the surfing that is. Something that I know he wants. After everything he's done for me so far it felt like the least I could do.
"What are you smiling about?" Tiana had appeared by my side nudging me ever so slightly.
This morning I had come down stairs, I had almost forgotten my meds I was so busy day dreaming. So then, even my parents had commented on my chirpy attitude.
"Just a good day," I sent my smile towards her.
She raised her eyebrows knowing that there was something else I wasn't telling her. "At eight in the morning?"
I wasn't so sure about telling Tiana about what happened between Derek and I yesterday. I will at some point but I didn't know if she would side with Toby on hating him.
However what I was sure about was the fact that I had never been kissed like that before. But then again I had only just had my first kiss a couple of weeks ago, but I know one thing and that is that Toby didn't make me feel like that.
So I simply lifted my shoulders in a shrug. "What can I say? I had a good sleep."
And technically I wasn't lying to her this time, as that was partially true.
Thing was, for most of the night I was up replaying the feeling of his hands on my skin and his smile against my lips and for the other half, well, I was dreaming about him doing it over and over again.
"Right, okay." Tianas eyes were narrowed in an attempt to read me but she didn't question any further.
In all honestly I had no idea how things would be between him and I now. Would Derek see me and act as though nothing had happened? Would-
Oh god, I suppressed the urge to face palm myself.
Toby.
What am I supposed to do about Toby? Not only have I kissed him but Derek now too, and he also happened to be Toby's least favourite person on the planet right now.
If he finds out then the not so friendly lunchtime exchange yesterday might actually be a little more friendly than the fight that Toby might break out when he knows. And I know he's got a hell of a right hook.
