back in time [ a countryhumans Philippines fanfiction ]

chapter 22 : chased

Phil's pov

The cliff was windy brought by the salty and warm breeze and somehow moist by the water that came with it , and I could go now and live my life in the future but what if I- l- , tears started running down my face when the thought of Spain dying for me wasn't something I could expect . It's my fault, my fault why he can't go back and live his live with his lover , what would even his lover say .

What will I say to the other nations when they realize that Spain in missing? Should I say that we went in a fucking portal and died , some countries will kill me , they will think I've gone mad and they would put me in a fucking mental hospital. Fuck everything !

Am I even dreaming ? Are these all made up ? Have I really gone made ? Is everything around me even real ? I just can't , I can't anymore. I just don't want to live like this .

I turned around seeing a gorgeous tree green as can be , the branches where very in for , the moss that gave life but that wasn't the attention it gave me . As I saw the tree a rope was knotted in the way it hanged people , the person either would be executed with it or the people could kill a person with it or even a person could end everything with it .

I grabbed the rope, running the tips of my fingers at the way the rope was twisted in design and the brown that resembled to the the color of the ground that you'll be in once you'll pass and soon you'll become dirt that just become helpful for nature .

But something didn't feel right , I took one step back and just ran , I ran like tomorrow wasn't promised despite my feet was now bleeding because of how many things I've been stepping on , I kept running and running and running until-

I woke up the cave and realized I was dreaming and blood that running down my forehead , was I dreaming the whole time ? I got up and made my way out the cave once again and I was Spain's satchel , lound music played outside and it was modern music . I looked outside the beach had lots of people sun tanning , swimming , and basically having fun . Then I remembered Spain , I wanted to cry but I can't and not now .

I noticed people staring at me , I need to change and I could find a hotel room first and tomorrow I'll go home . I walked out the cave with people recognizing I was a country leader. But I shrugg it all of because at 2015 I was spending time in my room watching as time went by . I walked to a nearby snack shop that sells souvenirs .

~time skip~

I was now in a hotel room laying down blankly and staring at Spain's ring that he was supposed to give to his lover , tears finally came out . I fucking hate myself, it's truly my fault why Spain died why didn't it be me ? he has so much to live for . I threw the glass of alcohol that was beside me across the room, why did he die ? Can my story just end with a happy ending for once ? A story without dying , regrets, and suffering

It's like somehow I'm cursed, why is everyone around me dying? I closed my eyes for a moment , trying to smoothed everything out . That's when I heard a knock at the door. I took a sigh and just stood up to open the door and to my surprise it wasn't someone I knew or someone who worked here , I could tell by the way he dress "what do you want ?" I yelled at him as he came inside and locked the door , he was one of Spain empire's soldiers. "Nada (nothing)" he also spoke Spanish which confirmed what I thought and also remembered Spain's words when he said that "one of them is a time traveler"

"What are you doing here ?" I asked another question bringing out the gun from Spain's satchel "like I said nothing" he smirk and went closer to me "what do you what ?" I asked as my voice echoed the room "the pocket watch , Spain's pocket watch, and your pocket watch" he said as I felt confused , why does this crazy psycho want my pocket watch ? "Whyy ?" He says as I read his expression, he wasn't happy