Nice to meet you. I love you. |BTS JIMIN HS FF|

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I spent most of the day observing him secretly, trying to sort out my thoughts and sync them with my feelings.

He turned around more than once, and I averted my gaze in shame.

When lunch came, I made an excuse for not being hungry, saying I'll be right back, but I just hid in the toilet. It was such a childish thing to do, but I am a mess right now.

'Where did you go? We were waiting for you.' Taehyung asked once they came back to class and found me at my desk

'Sorry, I got sidetracked, and then it was too late.' I lie

Iyera didn't believe that. She raised her eyebrow at me, then sat down, not even uttering a word to me. I saw Jimin smiling a little at me, but I just laid down on my desk, turning my head opposite of him.

When the school finished, I almost ran out. I wanted to avoid everyone and everything.

Or not.

'Yeona!' Jimin called after me, but I pretended not to hear and kept on walking

'Yeona, wait.' His voice got louder as he got closer, taking my hand, but I jerked it away

He was surprised, looking at me with his eyes a bit wide. 'What's going on? Why are you running away?'

'I wasn't. I was just going home.' I mumble, looking down at my feet

'Yeona... did I do something wrong?' His voice went low, sad

'No. It's not you. I promise.' I smile a little

'Then why are you avoiding me? What happened today? Everything was okay this morning. Did he do something to you?' He cups my face, looking deep into my eyes

'No. Nothing like that.' I pull away. 'Sorry. I just gotta go. I'm sorry.' I ran away again, but at least he didn't follow me this time

I don't think I've ever gotten home so quickly in my life. I showered and got into my bed, spending a good few hours just hugging my pillow.

*bzzz bzzz*

Jimin
Can you meet me in the park in 10?

It was almost 9.
I didn't even get to reply when I got another message.

Jimin
Please. Or I'm coming to you.

Me
I'll be there

There is no avoiding this. I need to solve it sooner rather than later. This childish behaviour won't do anything for me.

I walked slowly down to the park, and he was already there. He was shaking his knee and pulling on his thumbs. He's nervous. This is all my fault.

He heard me step on the pebbles and turned quickly, getting up from the bench. 'Yeona.'

'Hi.' I wave a little

'I didn't think you'd come.'

'You did say you'd come to me so...' I smile weakly

'Can we talk? Please?' He pleads

'Yeah. I think we should.' I nod

We sat in silence for a few minutes. I think he was just letting me go at my own pace. He didn't wanna push.

'Jimin, am I leading you on?'

Even I was surprised with my own question. I was gonna build up to it, but Iyera's words planted that seed in my head, and it's been eating me alive

'I'm not sure if I'd call it that.' He chuckles a bit dryly. 'But it is a bit more than friendly. The way we are.'

'God, I'm stupid.' I lean over, hiding my face in my hands

'Is this why you've been running away from me the entire day?'

'I'm sorry. I know I'm being an idiot, I just didn't know how to face you. Iyera laid down some facts for me that I wasn't aware of, and it made me feel ashamed.' I admit

'So that's what happened.' He exhales deeply but quietly. 'What did she tell you?'

'To stop leading you on and sending mixed signals.' I give him the short version

'Is that it? Because that doesn't seem enough for you to flip the switch so suddenly.'

'She thinks I have feelings for you, but that I'm too scared to admit it to myself.' I mumble, hoping he didn't hear

'Do you?' His voice is just as quiet. 'Do you have feelings for me?'

'I don't know.' I admit even more quiet

He lifted my chin up just like he did this morning. 'Do you want to find out?'

'Huh?' What is he doing?!

'Yeona, there is something else that I wanted to talk to you about. For a while now, actually.' He pulled on his thumb a little, just barely enough for me to notice

'I want a chance.'

'A chance? A chance for what?'

'A chance to make you happy.'

Calm down my heart.
'Jimin... what- I can't. You know I can't.' It is not fair to him

'I know what I am asking for. I know you still love him. I know you may not see me the same way you see him, but I want a chance to show you that you can be with someone and be happy. He does nothing but make you cry. I would never do that.' He put both his hands on my face, holding me gently

'Jimin, why? I can only hurt you.' My voice cracked a little

'A month. Give me one month to make you fall for me. I think Iyera was telling the truth. I think you do feel something, but you don't know what. Just give me a month. If after a month you still don't know if you feel anything, I will leave you alone. If after a month, he is still the one you want, I will move aside. Just...' he stopped talking and took a deep breath. 'I like you, Yeona. A lot. And I know it's selfish of me to say it when you are so broken, but I can't hide it. I just want you to be happy.'

My tears were coming on a lot faster than I could stop them. I don't want to hurt him.

'Can you please forget about him, just for one month, and try to look at me and me only? I won't force you into anything, but I can treat you way better than he can. And I think you know that, too.'

I know that what he's saying is true, but I'm scared. Not even for myself. I'm scared of hurting him.

'I'm scared.' I cry out

'I know. I am, too.' He smiles. 'But I will do everything I can to take that fear and doubt away. Just be mine. One month. That's all I'm asking for. We will go at your pace. But please, be mine. Only mine. At least for a while.' He leaned his forehead against mine, whispering the last part

This could go terribly wrong. I could hurt him just as badly as Jungkook hurt me. Maybe worse. But I need to move on. I can't go on giving whatever is left of my heart to the same person who broke it in the first place. Maybe if I give all the pieces to Jimin, he will put them back together.

I nodded, barely even moving. 'Okay. I'm yours.'

'Really?' He pulled back a little, sounding as shocked as you could be. 'You're willing to try?'

'Yes.' I sniffle a little. 'I'm yours.'

'Oh, Yeona.' He pulled me into his chest, hugging me so tightly that it felt like I'll crumble if he let go. 'Thank you.' He pulled away just a little, leaving a soft kiss on my forehead

Didn't expect it, nor did I expect my heart to skip a beat with it. But I think that's a good thing.

Please, Yeona, don't hurt him. Do your best.