A Thousand Days

Chapter 18

AUDREY'S POV

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I woke to the most amazing feeling in the world, having someone beside me. I just sat there taking in his warmth and embracing his tight hold on me. There's something special about that moment when you wake up and realize that you're not alone. That someone is there and they care. He's probably never going to want to talk to me again after this. I can't stay. As much as I want to I need to think. I need some fresh air.

I peeked outside the doors to see the bag I had packed and took it in the bathroom so I could take a shower. I threw on my joggers, a pink and grey hoodie, and my all pink roshe runs. I tip-toed out the bathroom and saw Justin still laying there. I could always hop back in bed with him, but I know I won't be thinking clearly if I do. I walked out the room, crept down the stairs and went out the front door. I just started walking I had no clue where I was going.

Part of me wants to forget we even happened and another part of mew refuses to let go. This would be a whole lot simpler if he wasn't "The Justin Bieber". I don't think he realizes how much I'd have to give up to be with him. I'd be giving up all my privacy and the privacy of all those around me. I'd be forced to face all my insecurities, because I know people will have no problem calling them out. I can't have any kind of career because I'll always be known as the girl who's dating Justin Bieber.

Besides, there's no guarantee that we would even last. I mean look at me. I'm just some dumb college kid. Justin has his whole life figured out. He knows who he is and I'm still trying to figure it out. He knows how to be happy and I don't. I've been struggling with it and I don't know what to do. The only thing I know is that Justin makes me happy. I'm just not sure if I'm ready to make those sacrifices. I guess that's what people do when they are in love.

I stopped walking once I heard my phone ringing.

"Audrey?" he said.

"Yeah." His breathing was a little uneasy, but so was mine.

"Please come back." He said. I heard his voice cracked

"Okay." I turned back around and headed back to the house.