What should I know (catradora)

Chapter 26

"Well yes but no," netossa says while putting her hand on her forehead "It's a process and quite a long one if that" She stops for another moment.

I look down at my hands, there shaking. am I going to die? I should be happy. I look over to adora, she's crying. I want to hug her, I want her to forget about me. I love her. I don't think I ever stopped, but I hurt her.

"What is the process..?" adora says, almost choking on her words.

"well, first we need to see if you're eligible for it and a match to catra's, second we need to get catra started on treatments so she is eligible for a transplant, we'll have to start her on weekly, possibly daily, dialysis for her kidneys and after a week or two we should be able to figure out things for a transplant, there is a possibility it could take a few months as well"

nobody spoke after what she said, I didn't want to believe it, nor did Adora. She still cares about me and I have no idea why. I don't understand any of it, why did Spinnerella care, why did netossa? I ruin everything I touch. 

why do any of them put this much effort into me? I could go on and on about these questions but I don't, I look at adora. I looked at the girl I had spent days with. but as I do I think, what about the cost of all of this? where is the money coming from? I can't do that to them. ill die before I do that.

"I'm not going to do the transplant, it's too much. I can't pay for it and I'm not putting something like that on you guys.." I say in a half mumble. I can't stand to look at them. the sense after that is nearly deafening.

"What?" adora says in an almost irritated tone. what does she mean? this doesn't quite sit right with me.  why is she even here? that day, that fight, why the hell is she here? I feel the shooting pain in my stomach but I don't care, my head is spinning but I manage to look at her.

 netossa is in the hallway talking to another woman while pointing to the charts, I look back at adora. her eyes are glossy, she has bags under her red eyes. Has she been crying? I think to myself as I go to hug my stomach.

"You have to do the dialysis catra, you need to get the transplant"

I cough as it almost turns into a laugh "I don't need to do shit adora"

"you realize that you will die right? I'm not going to let that happen catra"

"Why are you here, Adora? Why are you here? We both know I don't matter you said it yourself the last time you saw me" 

"You do matter catra, I was so stupid for saying that. I was pissed off for god knows what but I know that was a mistake and I know I shouldn't have left that day, I will never forgive myself for what happened to you," she says with her voice wavering 

I can feel tears in my eyes, god this girl knew how to get me, didn't she? 

"the money isn't a problem catra, I can assure you that." netossa said as coming back into the room.

"Look honey" I look up at netossa as she puts a hand on my shoulder. "spinny and I have good insurance, I won't cost much, and even if it did you're life is more important than that"

"but you're not my legal guardian," I say confused too her 

"Well, if you let me and Spinny can be, all you have to do is sign a few papers. we got all the legal things worked out," she says as she smiles softly

at that moment over a hundred thoughts went through my mind, some good, some bad. mostly bad haha but something in me accepted it. "okay" I say back to her

"So you'll do the dialysis," she says to me, I nod back

god what did I just get myself into?

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