What should I know (catradora)

~Chapter 11~

TW: suicide, blood, mentions of abuse

it is spread throughout the chapter

(Adora's pov)

Jesus picks up, pick up, that is the 4th time I have called catra she hasn't picked up. Where is she I call glimmer next, "Hello" glimmer says "look I need your help, catra just sent me a suicide note and I have no clue where she is" "Oh god, have you checked her house?" "Yes and the lake by the school" "The bridge, she is probably at the bridge" "Okay" I hang up the phone and drive there. Fast.

(Catra's Pov)

"so this is it," I say to myself while I am standing on the side of the bridge, there is no happy ending for me, there is no fix to any of this this is my choice, my fault. I stand there for 5 minutes, good dammit why is this so hard.

No one will ever care that I did it, it will just be another person gone, nothing special nothing important, just gone. there is no point in staying, Adora can find someone else. I have a backpack to the side of the railing with Adora's jacket and a note saying I'm sorry.

I'm ready, I'm ready to die, I'm about to step off when I hear "Catra, don't do this"

(No-ones Pov)

(third-person)

"Catra don't do this" Adora yelled to catra still standing on the railing, she doesn't care what she said, doesn't turn back, doesn't do anything just stands there.

"Catra please don't do this I need you," Adora says to catra again "no," catra says "What, yes I do," Adora says, "you don't need me, Adora, you never have or never will." catra says with tears dripping down her face.

"Catra, I love you, and I always will, so, please stay," Adora says while crying at this point "Adora I always feel alone, like I'm worthless, almost no one cares about what I do, my mother was right about one thing, I am a disappointment," catra says 

"No, your not a disappointment, your amazing to me and so many other people," Adora says "you can find someone different, better," catra says taking one foot off the ledge to jump, right before she could Adora grabbed her hand, pulled her down and hugged her.

"Don't leave, there is so much you can do before you do catra" Adora said to her, Adora was hugging her and catra was hugging back.

(Adora's Pov)

I was hugging her, she was okay, we were sitting in silence the only noise we could hear was the running of the river. everything was okay until I feel my forearm getting wet where I had it on catra's back, the next thing I feel is catra arms lose grip. the next thing I feel is catra passing out.

no, no, no, no, I pick her up and cradle her in my arms and get the backpack then run to the car. I put her in the back seat along with the backpack. I start the car and call mara.

"Adora? where are you," mara says "Um so hi I left because catra just tried to commit suicide and well I got there before she could, but now she is unconscious in the backseat of my car and I don't know what to do her back is bleeding," I say very fast to her 

"Okay calm down it's going to be okay, when you get to the house bring her up to your room I will have the first aid kit ready," she says to me"

*6 minutes later*

When we got to the house I got her out of the back seat and her back was still bleeding, I open the door and bring her upstairs. her blood is dripping from my forearm and onto the floor and shirt which I could care less at this point

"Bathroom!" I hear mara yell, I walk to the bathroom "Jesus, put her in the tub on to her stomach" mara says so I do she slowly takes off her hoodie and her shirt.

when she does there are pieces of glass in her back and cuts all around "What the hell happened to her" mara said "Her mom" I say with gritted teeth "we can talk about this later, right now I need to clean these wounds" mara said "okay ill go clean up the blood

I go back to my car and get the backpack, I go back inside and open it is my jacket with a sticky note that said I'm sorry. I almost lost her I stood there thinking about what could have happened, her phone was also in there I took it out and put it on the table. while mara is upstairs I clean up the blood that dripped on the floor.

"1 hour and 30 minutes later*

when I am done I go to my bedroom and take off my shirt clean the blood off my hands and arms and change my clothes. I go to the bathroom after that and mara is almost done some of the cuts had stitches on them, I can't believe there were cuts that deep. "there you are can you get me a shirt for her just one of yours or something" mara says to me "yeah" I walk to my room and get my 8th-grade pe shirt hoping that will fit her I walk back to the bathroom and up the shirt on the counter.

"Do you need help?" I ask while she is bandaging "yeah" she says. we bandage her chest up and down and then I put the shirt on very carefully. "Okay we can either put her on the couch or blow up the air mattress," mara said "She can stay in my room" "okay, then meet me downstairs we need to talk" "okay"

I take her to my room and put her down on my bed very carefully, then I go downstairs to talk to mara. she was pacing.

"mara calm down," I say to her "what do you think to happen to her? do you really think her mother did this" "yes I do, remember how at the soup kitchen today she flinched when she put her hand on catra's shoulder" "that's right she did"

"she had cuts on her arm," mara said "like the ones on her back" "No I'm pretty certain she did those to herself, there are fresh ones and scars of old ones," she said to me "The jacket, that's why she wears the jacket" we were about to continue talking when catra's phone starts buzzing

it says Sharon, before mara answers the phone she tells me to voice record this message so I do and mara puts it on speaker.

 "Where the hell are you" the lady yells over the phone "well hello Sharon," mara says "you the one from the soup kitchen, where the hell is my daughter" "she's currently in my sister's room resting, after trying to commit suicide" "and you stopped her," she said laughing "yes," "Why that disgrace to humanity should be dead, I thought I finally got rid of her today after I broke that bottle on her back" 

"well see your first mistake is saying that over the phone saying we are recording this, second of all your life is really over after this" mara says after hanging up the phone "ill call mica he can help us with this we finally got enough evidence to put this bitch in jail," mara says "Okay I say and go upstairs into my room and listen to music, I look over to catra. God, I hope she is okay.

(A/N) Well, I thought when writing this chapter, what if I just need it here with catra dying but I didn't, well anyways tell me what you think Bye!