What should I know (catradora)

~Chapter 12~

TW: Razor, thoughts of suicide, talks about suicide

(A/N) Adora is 5'9 now because yeah

(Adora's pov)

catra is asleep, still, it's been hours. I've put music on my record player, I put on a normal album by will wood. I sit there for hours just thinking of all that could happen, what could have happened, anything that I could have not believed could happen, what if catra killed herself before I got there.

I'm in the middle of thinking that all that could have happened when I hear catra groan then cough, I shoot up from my seat and go over to the bed "catra?" I say in a soft voice. she just groans again, "Hey it's okay," I say to her, "do you want me to help you sit up" she nods to me 

I try and help her up very, very carefully. I move her legs over the bed and try to help her get up without touching her back. when I try to help her sit up she winces in pain, "I know it's going to hurt, I'm sorry I should have been there sooner or-" "stop" she says in a voice I almost can't hear

she coughs "its not your fault at all, you couldn't have known" she says quietly "I'm here now and I'm not leaving until your better" I say to her, she is taking very heavy breaths. "does it hurt to breath" I say to her, she nods her head in response 

"I'm going to go ask mara if we have an inhaler or something to help," I say softly while getting up, I try walking away when I feel something grab my wrist "no, just please, stay," she says, she sounds like she is going to cry . "okay" I sit back next to her and hold her hand on my lap slowly rubbing my thumb against her hand to try and give her some sort of comfort.

we sit there for about 5 minutes she lays her head on my shoulder and closes her eyes. another 5 minutes pass and catra starts to cry "hey, it's okay, she isn't going to hurt you again, I promise" I wanted to hug her so bad but it would just hurt her.

I kiss her on the head instead "it's okay" I try comforting her, "what if I deserved it" she said while sobbing "what, no no one deserves what happened to you catra" I say to her "what if I did ruin her life, what if I did make my dad leave, what if I did all of this to my self" she says while crying "No, she made you think all of those things were true when there no, she did those things to herself"

catra cries for the next 15 minutes her head was on my shoulder and she starts to calm down. she closes her eyes and eventually falls asleep "it's okay, I will be here when you wake up" I lay her down on her side and let her sleep.

I go downstairs and I hear "okay thanks, bye," mara says to glimmers dad "hey," I say to her "hey, you okay" "yeah I'm fine, I just hate that woman with a burning passion for what she did to catra" "I know I do too, we can talk more about the case tomorrow" "Okay, we need an inhaler or something catra is saying it's hard to breath" "okay, you should go to sleep it's late" "I am, night" "night" I walk upstairs and fall asleep next to catra

*next morning* 

the next morning I help catra get up and walk to the bathroom when she gets out I sit her down on the bed, mara is out talking to Micha were on a two-week break right now. "are you comfortable there?" she nods her head before I could say anything I hear the doorbell ring, "ill be right back, okay?" "Okay," she says softly

I go downstairs and the person rings the doorbell 2 more times, Jesus calm down. when I open the door "you" I hear from Sharon 

"what do you want" "where the hell is my daughter" "your really going to call her daughter after what you did, wow" "I didn't do anything, she brought this onto her self" "Oh shut the hell up" "what did you say to me" "Shut. The. Hell. Up" 

she tries to punch me and I doge it and punches her square in the nose, and hard "You just broke my fucking nose!" she yells at me "Good" I say when slamming the door in her face. 

I walk back upstairs and see catra in the bathroom with a razor in her hand that she got from the drawer, "Catra, what are you doing" "doing what I should have done on the bridge" she says while crying, she is shaking like crazy. I walk closer to her "no, no, don't do this please don't do this, your worth so much to me and others." "No, no I'm not" "catra, hand me the razor, please" she does

she hugs me and I hug her back without hurting her "I'm sorry" she says while crying into my shirt "it's okay, everything is going to be okay"

(A/N) sorry, it's kinda short I didn't know what else to write, anyways tell me what you think Bye!