What should I know (catradora)

~Chapter 13~

TW: suicide, razors, mentions of self-harm, insults to self-harm

Some of it is spread throughout but I will put a ✪ when it gets really bad
(A/N this chapter is going to get confusing it's mostly Adora's pov)

(Adora's pov)
3:10
yesterday was... was the worst day of my life it was a normal day of my life. until 7:54 that time just a time turned into the worse thing that could have happened, happened.

*previous day*
6:26 am
yesterday catra fell asleep in my arms last night. after crying about that stupid bitch, shadow weaver that's my new nickname for her I hate her so much after what she did to catra.

I am holding catra as she is sleeping, her head is near my neck as I am holding her. I often wake up early now because of school, but I don't mind staying in bed with catra.

10:05 am

I feel catra move a little bit, "good morning" I say to her softly "morning" she says in almost a mumble "I'm going get up, Okay?" I say to her "no" she says as she nuzzles her head into my neck "okay" I say laughing "what's so funny?" "nothing that just tickles"

We lay there for another 5 minutes when she tries to get up "where are you going?" "I have to go to the bathroom" "okay, meet me downstairs after" "mkay"

I get up put a new shirt on and go downstairs, but I can't stop thinking what if she gets the razor out of the drawer. She's not going to I know she won't.

"Hey, do you guys want breakfast," mara said to me "sure, how did everything go with the lawyer and everything?" "it went well the phone call will be enough to put her to prison, her saying that her daughter should have killed herself and saying that she nearly killed her by abusing her" "great put that bitch in jail" "language Adora"

Catra walked downstairs "good morning catra," mara said to her as she was making pancakes, "good morning" "how are you feeling" "okay, everything hurts" "here takes some of this" mara hands her 2 pills "what are they?" "pain killers"

she gets some water sits down next to me and takes them. we have a bar-type seating that we sit at, but we also have a kitchen table "hey" I say to her "hey" I kiss her, and then I hear "Adora come here and help me" I stand up and go to mara.

"bring these to the kitchen table and tell catra to go sit down there" mara whispers I mod to her in response, I have two plates of pancakes, eggs, and bacon in my hand and walk over and put them on the kitchen table.

"Hey come on let's go sit down,"  I said to catra she nodes back at me and we go sit down.  5 minutes later Mara comes back with another plate of food for her and orange juice, and cups. For the rest of the breakfast, we just have random conversations.

"So what do you guys want to do today, " mara asked us, catra shrugged her shoulders she hasn't talked much this whole breakfast "you okay" I whisper to her she nods her head "whatever you want," I say to mara " okay then we are going to the mall" "okay," I say back" "is that okay catra?" mara asks she just nods back

11:34 am

we were in the car something was up with Catra something is bothering her, I just think it's just everything that has happened, god I hope it is.

we arrive at the mall 10 minutes later and mara's goal today was to get catra new clothes, which isn't going to work because she would refuse things that are given to her without her having to work for them.