when i love
i love hard
so when i love
don't break my heart
don't shatter it to pieces
and leave me here to rot
but with you it's hard
it's like you can hurt me
though my love for you is hard as a rock
i can say it'll go away
that my love for you will fade
and everything will be okay
but the minute my arms lock in with urs
all that love comes flooding in waves
an advantage that you have over me
an advantage that no other man can ever have
my love for you is like walking in an endless cave
with no ending,
just a long road that's built for you
to a man who's condescending
this advantage that you have
its unfair,
it's something my strength cannot take care
it's a lack of my joy
a lack of weakness
the more love i give
the less that i live
but deep down
i tell myself "it's worth it"
i say "ur the man of my life
my only one in my mind
no matter how hard you have broken me
i'm always here, waiting by your side"
the advantage that you have
has taken control all over me
begging and pleading for you to love me
yet you just leave
you leave me with my mind in confusion
saying you love me
but then it becomes an illusion
so i beg and beg
and i wept and wept
i want to give all my love to you
you're the only one that i have
i dream the day you come back to me
i dream the day it becomes worth it
but how delusional can i be
when we had the multiple talks
about you not being good enough for me
yet u have that advantage
you take over me
as my arms are wrapped around yours
and my lust is all over your body
your advantage
