honestly it's not fair.
honestly i've seen u not care
multiple times
from time to time
i ask myself why
yet my answer
is always a lie
i said, he'd never do that to me
he won't lie
even though he's left me multiple times
even though he's driven away, watching me cry
but he loves me, i said
i swear he really does
he wants to raise a family with me
and to never leave us
he left me twice
but that's okay
he's the one who approached me first
and on valentine's day
but he still left
both times
leaving me here
making me wanna die
he said, ur delusional
you always play the victim
even though those times he left me
he moved on to someone
making me feel removable
so, how can he love me ?
how can you love me ?
saying you wanna raise a family
but ur inside another girl
days after you left me ?
how should i believe you ever love me ?
when all you care about is the next woman u want in ur body ?
how do you want me ?
then two weeks later sleep with someone
that quickly ?
you want a baby with me
yet you left me not once but twice
calling me delusional, calling me crazy
but how can i be delusional ?
how can i be crazy ?
when i was right all along ?
and you just used me ?
no matter how many times i hear you tell me u love me
i will never believe you
as you throw me away that easily
so u don't deserve to know
u don't deserve to be in my life
not anymore
not again
you don't get to have a baby with me
and you don't get to love me like u said u did
so go out there. worry about yourself
u said u wanna be alone for a while
i'll make that come true
so don't worry about me
don't worry about what's in my body
i gave you the life you claim you wanted
ur not getting back into my life
not anymore.
no more families no more babies
no more fantasy of you wanting to be with me
as i grant your wish to be alone
i'm done with the lies
i'm done with all the cries
so go to some other girl you can get pregnant
hopefully you don't leave her this time
and hopefully you actually wanna be in her life
but like i said, don't worry
i helped you grant your wish
wanting to be alone
wanting to learn how to love yourself
and not surround urself with a bitch
cuz at the end of the day
i am the victim
i am the girl that got away
i am the girl who could've gave u a better life
i am the best girl who came into you life
you don't deserve to know
you don't deserve to wonder
what we could've been
what we could've had
the damage you did is already done
and now you face the consequences
and fulfill your wish
to be alone
yet unloved.
