I Think I Love You - Chishiya x Niragi

Chapter 18

TW: Sleep paralysis, panic attack (Idk if these are really triggers, I just thought I'd mention them because it's quite a panicky scene)

Chishiya's POV:
A few days later, people of the beach were crowding around for game time, and there was one of the guys I saw in the tag game. It was the fluffy black haired one. But where was his friend? I was at least happy he and his climber friend had found the Beach. I explained to Kuina maybe we'd be able to use them in the plan. People went to play their games, but I stayed back to figure out where to go from there. I layed on my bed in my room and hugged my cat plushy. I missed Niragi. It was the only thing I had that reminded me of him. I continued to lie to myself that I was fine as I fell asleep. I woke up a while later and looked out the window. It was already dark, so of course I went down to look for Kuina. I went to the pool where people crowded around. Drama? I thought. I watched as the new guy talked back to Niragi. I scoffed quietly. He side eyed me and I pretended not see. I tuned out what was going on and thought about our plan. I looked up and down the building to see if I could see through any windows, but the highest window in the room where the cards were kept was too high for me to see through. I watched as Hatter walked up to the militant corps. I observed him, almost as if I was attempting to see his brain and think like him. If I were Hatter...how would I hide the cards? I thought. Really, Hatter isn't exactly stupid enough to make it too obvious, but at the same time there's always the possibility, which is why we have our bait. Now, how do I know what to do with the cards when I have them all? I guess I'll find out. I watched Hatter bring the new guy into the building. Niragi watched with the face he makes when he's wrong about something or has been beaten in a game. I smiled knowing he was bothered, but smiling hurt a bit so I shook it off and approached Kuina. We talked more about our plan until I got tired and finally went to sleep. The fight with Niragi played in my head over and over again. This escape plan started to make me feel sick, but I pushed down my feelings and forced myself asleep. My dreams went through the day. The day went by quickly, but personally I felt slow. I was tired and I felt sick. Suddenly I couldn't breathe. I felt a pain in my side and in my chest. I felt like I had passed out in my sleep. I could feel the dizziness and the fall to the ground. I dreamt I was looking up at a white ceiling. I heard beeping. Was I in the hospital? I was paralyzed. I wanted to look up and see what was going on, but I couldn't move. The room was bright white. The blankets felt abnormally heavy, and the texture was scratchy. The blankets pressed down on my chest making it even harder to breath. I was gasping for air and the only thing I could hear was a heart monitor beeping faster and faster. I woke up from the dream, but I still couldn't move. I felt like darkness was wrapping around me and holding me down with a strong shadowy rope. I felt myself crying, but there was no sound. Finally I snapped out of it. I sat up quickly, gasping for air, now crying out loud. I covered my face. I was violently shaking as I pulled my knees up to my chest and hugged myself. I put my face into my knees and sat there crying and trying to breathe. I just wanted Niragi. I needed someone to wake up from that nightmare and hold me when I panicked, but no one was there. I lost faith in the plan, but I didn't care. If anything could possibly get me out of this hell, I'd take the opportunity. I sat in bed with a light on until I felt better. I layed down and feel asleep with the light still on, and woke up late in the afternoon. I didn't have a good feeling about the rest of my day, but if I was going to find out, I had to get up first, so as usual, I made the same mistake for the millionth time. I ignored what I was feeling, and went to get myself some food.