don't let it out

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Forrest
Today 5:15 PM

Millie:
Hey I have tanong

Forrest:
What's your tanong?

Millie:
You know how we never finished our 20 questions?

Forrest:
Right right

I think we stopped at 10th question?

Do you have your question?

Millie:
Yes I have!

Tho I don't know if it's appropriate one to ask

I was just really curious

Forrest:
What is it?

Millie:
Why did you break up with your last girlfriend? I don't mean to pry so if you don't wanna talk about it

Forrest:
No it's alright.

It was a mutual decision. We realised that we're better off as friends

There were no real issue with my past relationships

Millie:
How long you two were together?

Forrest:
3 years

We broke up over a year ago

Millie:
Oh that sucks

Forrest:
Hmm not really

Millie:
Wdym? It was 3 years sayang

Forrest:
It would suck more if we still hold on to each other even though we know that we don't love each other anymore romantically or like how we used to

Do you get what I mean?

Millie:
Right yeah I get what you mean

Okay now you ask me so it's fair

Forrest:
You asked two questions

So should I ask two questions too?

Millie:
Up to you

Forrest:
Okay what's your ideal date?

Millie:
Why? You wanna ask me out for a date? 🤨

Forrest:
Probably

Millie:
Uhhh I really don't know

I'm not really hard to please so whatever it is, I will appreciate it

But if you want me to be specific, I would really like to go to the beach, campfire, slow dancing at the beach, stargazing

I've been wanting that kind of date but they always take me to expensive dinners which isn't bad but I want something different.

Forrest:
Noted

Millie:
Hahahaha you act like you're really taking me to a date hmm?

Forrest:
You don't believe me?

Millie:
I have a hard time believing

Forrest:
Like your trust issues

Millie:
Yes

I guess you know now what happened to my last relationship by now even though I never really mentioned it to you

Forrest:
Yeah, Mace

Millie:
Yeah daldal talaga

I'm gonna strangle him

But yeah

After that thing, I really had hard time believing or trusting. When someone says that they like me or whatever, I always question their intentions

Like who the hell wanted to be the other woman? And worse, I had no idea. That's why I think I got really scared. My mind keeps telling me, what if it happens again? What if I fuck up again?

When my family found out about the thing, they were furious. Especially my grandparents. I didn't know that Jake had a girlfriend, yet it still my fault? I did not know. My uncles and aunties even my cousins reprimanded me. All I ever had was Sierra, my brother, and my parents. I guess I was lucky I have them but I just can't believe it until now.

Forrest:
I'm sorry you feel that way. You don't deserve all of that

Millie:
I know I don't deserve it. Hell, I was a victim but they made me look like I was this slut

And now, he has the audacity to invite me to his wedding

Forrest:
You know you don't have to attend that wedding

Millie:
I want to. I don't know why. They say it was a dumb thing to even attend

Forrest:
You're putting yourself in trouble

Millie:
Would you still go with me?

Forrest:
Of course. I already said I'll go with you.

Millie:
I just don't want you to feel committed to me

Forrest:
I want to. I'm firm with my words, Millie. If I said I'm going with you, I will go with you no matter what. I won't leave you hanging in the end.

Millie:
Thank you for doing this

Forrest:
As long as it's for you

Millie:
I promise when all of these are done, I'll make it up to you