Fated strings of love

Ch-5 | DREAM OR REALITY

Tara

We were walking around the Connaught place, and  he was holding my hand firmly and I was following him, it was 6 : 45pm and we were at the park there.

After that we both bought a pair of sunglasses, and this time I paid.
He asked me,"why?"
" it is just a gift for you" I said

He smiled and thanked me, but when I was looking at his smile my heart sank in pain, I am feeling like crying but why???

There's a feeling that i can't explain in words. And it's so unsettling that it shook  every emotion of mine and controls me. It's like I am scared of something I don't know...

When we watched the waterfall show, time flied like a minute....i saw the time and it's 8:23pm,
Aditya asked "what happened?" I told
him " it's late...we have to go back

After that we ate some dishes that were famous at Connaught place, while going back, Aditya bought an ice cream for me and himself. I didn't told him that i like chocolate flavour ice-cream, how did he knew?
I wanted to ask him, but i didn't asked and just enjoyed my icecream.

Aditya was driving his car, then he asked to me
" so how was the day?...did you like it?"

I said " it was like a dream for me...I have always dreamed a day like this...it was fun...you know I never ever went alone with my friends, I never knew how it felt like to have a best friend by your side, to hang out with them, to bunk classes for fun with them....because...I never had a best friend...everyone gets friendly to me when they want something from me, but they never help me when I needed them, so I just stopped socializing with everyone...I stopped helping them...so they all started to spread rumours about my selfishness and rudeness...so, I never knew this feeling...but it feels nice and safe"

I saw Aditya and realised I talked a bit too much " ..huh...I am sorry I must
have bored you, I started to babbling this and that "

" no...no it's nice just listening to you about yourself, and it was not boring at all... you know what, just forget those selfish people...just say loudly fuck you all" he said.

“ no ways!!! " I said
" listen to me you will feel better, just do as I say " he insisted

" no ways i don't use swearing words. " I said

He said " I will teach you how to swear , I am sure you will like it, just think about them and say this...just outburst your feelings don't bottle up your emotions that you hide behind this smiling face and be the real badass, just in front of me...I will not say anything bad about you.... trust me"

I looked at him and i don't know why but I want to open up, I don't want to hide anything from him " okay... "

I thought about those friends and with full feeling of anger toward them I said " b...bi...bitch "
It was weird for me to swear but aditya encouraged me
I sweared loudly in car
" fuck you bitches ...fuck you assholes, what do you think of yourselves huh?? Do you think you all matter to me...no you don't you losers , son of ********************"
I literally felt relaxed, aditya cheered for me.

"I told you it works...." He said

He was driving the car and while he asked " today...don't you feel like you were on a date? "

I said " yeah a little bit...it feels like a date...when you were holding my hand and we watch a movie together and after that ate meals together"

He laughed and said " it was a date...no friends used to hang out like this"...and smiled

" what?...i mean why would you take me out for a date ? " i asked

" because I wanted to be sure that you are not my ideal type..." he said.

I felt a bit offended here, so I told him while scoffing  "your ideal type...( laughs ) you know what, I also have some really high standards, okay "

He scoffed and asked "so? I am not your standard huh?"
I wanted to offend him the same way so I told him " yeah "

"you know what, you are correct I am not your standard because I am out of your league..." He said while raising his eyebrows

What an arrogant person he is ??, I don't want to spoil my mood so I said " if you are happy by this, then be happy..."

He looked at me for a while like he was upset about something.

"we are here...really today was fun...I enjoyed" he said while smiling.

" yeah I also enjoyed today , thanks " I said
He said " bye... See you soon"

I went inside, I told the badi mummy the thing we did, As she was really excited to hear all of my story, she was happy seeing me smile.

I went to my room and lay on the bed, I was smiling but i wanted to tell someone about my feelings about aditya,
why I feel so different about him, it's definitely not normal... it's not like I have never met any handsome guys like him, i have met Ayan, he was also very handsome and I even dreamed of him but when I was with him I didn't feel anything like the way I feel, when I am with aditya...does that mean I like him?.

no, no I can't like him, he said I am not his ideal type, why am I feeling hurt by his words. It's like I got rejected before confessing .

It's okay...it's okay I also don't like him. He is not my type.
I changed my clothes and tried to fall asleep but it was hard for me. For the first time in my life i felt bad over someone's words.

I closed my eyes as I was trying to sleep.

I heard someone crying, I opened my eyes and i again saw the same door i saw last time in my dream,
I tried to open that door and saw myself crying in a Dark room, maybe again... I am in a dream but whose room is this, I have never been here, but why I am crying, oh I don't have a scar on my face this time.

Someone was banging the door really violently. I wonder who is it?. Me in the dreams wiped her tears and opened the door, a guy barged in this room,

a...aditya! why is he here? He was trying to say something and I wasn't listening to his words, I was yelling at him. But he was trying to wrap me in his arms and was trying to hug me and comfort me.

No way!!! Aditya said, I am not his type then why would he do this to me, but it's interesting to watch them,

what the hell am I doing !!!
I pushed him and was telling him to leave me alone.

I heard aditya said, " I don't care what you say, I am yours, so please don't push me away, I am your boyfriend can't you believe me atleast once"
Me in my dreams yelled at him saying " believe you?? "

Did I hear correctly, he said Boyfriend!!!!  My eyes widened in shock,  my boyfriend, aditya!!!

I am literally in a dream, ok I'm gonna wake up, I pinched myself hard on cheeks but I didnt woke up why can't I wake up?

I saw myself, she pushed aditya and said, " i can't!!! I DON'T WANT YOU! GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE"

She pushed aditya out of the room and locked the room and cried a lot

Oh my god, i can't understand this situation, I loved aditya and he is my boyfriend. Then What was the reason to do this?....

I again felt a sharp pain in my head and felt dizzy,  I saw myself fading away and I woke up from that dream.

I saw myself back in my room,
Now,  I don't think this is a normal dream, this is like a memory this feels so real...there is something weird about these dream I should note them down. I took out my diary and wrote the dream I had today and the previous dream too, in which I was fighting with my dad and saw ayan

In both the dreams I noticed that in one of them, I didn't have any scar but in the dream that I saw first there was a scar on my head above my right eye.

Is this just a ridiculous dream? or it's my future. There is something weird I always feel a sharp pain in my head and gets dizzy, is there something wrong with me should I go to hospital, my head feels heavy, am I overthinking?....

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