Fated strings of love

Ch- 31 | PANIC ATTACK

Aditya

After a few days, I bought a house in Mumbai and the things I needed the most. I have lived alone before ,but before I was living with varun, not all alone but Now it's different

I feel really lonely sometimes, but I can’t disturb tara as her exams are near and she is busy with her preparation. I will not lie, it was really hard to live in Mumbai all alone, this city is really different from Delhi. It wasn’t as easy as I thought but I struggled a lot with the Language as mostly everyone was talking in Marathi, I met one of the judges for a song recording, we recorded the song but the song didn’t do that well, my first ever song was a flop and I was really depressed, I wasn’t getting any offers, so I started to look for work In ads and all but it wasn’t that memorable work of mine to be recognised as a singer.

I was all so busy in this hectic new life that, I didn’t get a chance to contact Tara, she also hasn’t called me, it’s been months since we talked to each other, only sometimes we contact at texts. We became distant, there were things she was going through but she didn't tell me anything when I asked her, she wanted to deal with everything by herself, this hurts me but I understand her, as she doesn't want to bother me.

By dedicating myself fully to my dream, I spent hours in order of getting an opportunity but it didn’t worked,

everything was falling apart my career, my love, my life everything, afterall just to pursue my dream I have risked everything, I was getting depressed lately, I started to take medicines for depression, but then I heard that my dad got injured in his office by an elevator crashing, dad’s condition was getting worse, he was in the hospital, i went to delhi and saw him hospitalized, his situation was really critical, he needed me by his side, mom was also all alone as sidharth was in college but as soon as he came to knew about dad condition he also came to help me and mom, he also told me about Tara.

Her grades were falling, she couldn’t concentrate on her studies as she is
also having some family crises. I stayed in delhi by dad’s side. As dad got discharged, he wasn’t able to walk for a while, so he was on the wheel chair, i stayed with mom and dad in delhi, And many golden opportunities slipped right through my hands, I was about to lose my mind, i was so depressed, in these times i needed tara, by my side, but she was in gwalior, she went to meet her family in Holidays,

as dad got a bit better,  I left for Mumbai, I wanted to see tara really badly but she wasn't here so I left without meeting her. My heart was really heavy when i left.

When I reached Mumbai I realised I lost all the opportunities I got after struggling day and night.

I got really depressed and my health was getting worse, it felt like everything was falling apart in my life, i needed someone to say that everything was fine, I needed her.

I called tara, but she didn’t answer the call. It felt like, I was getting lost in the darkness, without a single ray of light. My mind was filled with immense silence, i was haunted by my own thoughts.

These distances between me and tara were haunting me, In order to get closer towards my dream, I am getting apart from tara,

These distances between our eyes, our paths, our hands and our bodies I want them to vanish away.

Even her memories were not working anymore, it felt like we were getting further and further away.

I can’t live like this, I am losing my mind now, I want her, here with me.