I'm Not Yours

4. Sleeping With A Friend

"So, when you give that look to me, I better look back carefully. 'Cause this is trouble."

Well...that happened.

I've never been so happy to wake up sore. Literally everywhere.

Yes most of it is because of the training yesterday but some of it is definitely due to the mind blowing sex I had last night.

But even as I revel in how amazing the whole thing was, part of me still wonders if we made a mistake. Especially with what Bucky was saying afterward.

Don't get me wrong, I agree with him. Last night was supposed to satisfy the craving we were having for each other, but instead it's made it worse. I want more. And so does he. But he also wants no strings attached. Which I can do. I've done repeated hookups before. But not with people I worked with. Not with people I plan to be friends with. That shit never works out and always gets messy.

He'll get over it. I'm sure the heat of last night will settle and he'll remember why we hesitated in the first place. He was the sensible one when he stopped us the first time and then made it clear to me he didn't want a relationship. I need him to be the sensible one now.

"How'd you sleep?" Steve says as we both sit at the dining table and enjoy the breakfast Wanda and Vision made before leaving.

"Good." I say as I finish up a bite of my eggs. "Sore, but good." He doesn't need to know exactly why I'm sore.

I have the sudden realization that maybe he already knows. I mean, he is Bucky's best friend, I'm sure if he was going to talk to anyone about it, it would be him.

I look up, hoping he's not judging me for jumping into bed with his best friend on my first week here. But he just gives me a soft smile, making it clear that, if he does know, he doesn't really care.

"What do you have lined up today?" he asks, talking about my training schedule.

"Sam in the morning, weapons training with Nat, I have some time with Bruce today and then a double fitness and fighting training session with Bucky." I'm excited to be working with some new people today, but if I'm being completely honest I'm a little nervous about my time with Bucky, mainly because I don't know what's going to be going on in his head this morning.

"Busy day." he says, and there's a small hint of sadness there that I can't figure out.

"I'm excited. But I'm kind of getting worried about getting burnt out." I say, wondering if that's what's going through his mind.

But the concern that comes across his face makes me realize he's actually surprised to hear that. "It's a lot. You should tell Tony."

I shake my head. "I can't. If I do, he's going to think I'm not cut out for this." I didn't want to say anything at all, but I trust Steve. "I'm telling you because we're friends but please promise me you're not going to say anything."

"I won't." he says, but I can tell he's still concerned. "But that means you need to promise me that if you do start to feel yourself burn out, you'll say something and take a break."

"Okay." I say, despite knowing that I will probably push myself, because I have to learn to build up stamina. It's the only way I'm going to keep up with these people.

"You're not going to do it are you?" Steve says, looking slightly annoyed.

"What do you mean?" I say, wondering if that super soldier serum also gave him mind reading abilities.

"You say you'll speak up but you won't because you want to appear strong." He leans back with a small smirk on his face. "I know you Cali."

"After four days you know me?"