I'm Not Yours

16. The Heart Wants What It Wants

"There's a million reasons why I should give you up. But the heart wants what it wants"

"Oh god, Right there..."

Steve's tongue teases my entrance

"I love it when she makes that sound."

Bucky's hands run over my breasts as Steve's mouth continues to torment me.

"Do it again"

Oh god I can't take this.

"Fuck..."

"Keep going Steve..."

"So wet..."

"So good..."

"Come on doll, come for us."

"Cali!"

I jump at the sound of several voices calling out my name. I fall out of the memory from last night and realize I've stopped paying attention to the current Avengers meeting and god knows how long they've been trying to get me back."W-what?" I say, looking around at everyone.

"You alright there?" Tony asks, standing at the head of the table as he gives a briefing. "You kind of zoned out."

Oh god! Despite the fact that none of them know exactly what I was just daydreaming about, knowing what was playing in my head while at a meeting, sitting next to someone who I now consider like a dad, is absolutely mortifying. But even as I speak to them, the memory of Steve's face between my legs as Bucky caresses my body is still playing in my mind. "Yeah, I was just..." I look around to see everyone's eyes on me, and I can feel my cheeks burning up. "Thinking of what to have for lunch."

"We just had breakfast." Nat says, giving me a curious glance. She knows I'm lying. The whole room probably knows I'm lying. But since I can't admit it without telling them the real reason, I have to stick with it.

"I'm just planning ahead." I say, and my eyes shift over to where Steve and Bucky are both trying so hard to hide their smiles. I'm sure they know exactly where my mind was. And now I'm even more embarrassed.

"Well, can you focus on the present?" Tony says, and I can hear the annoyance in his voice.

I sink down in my chair, wanting to crawl under the table and just hide there. "Yeah."

Tony continues with his lecture as eyes slowly start coming off of me and back towards him. He's briefing us on a situation that SHIELD is monitoring. It's nothing too serious right now, but something we want to keep an eye on. Something I definitely should be paying attention to.

My phone buzzes in my pocket and despite the fact that I should 100% ignore it, I can't help but peek underneath the table, seeing that it's a message in the group chat that Bucky, Steve and I have.

Bucky:
If it makes you feel better,
I can't stop thinking about it either.

I look up at Bucky and see him pressing his lips together to hide his smile as he keeps his eyes on Tony, pretending to listen. I see Steve also look down at the message and after a few seconds I get another buzz on my phone.

Steve:
I can practically still
taste you on my lips.

Great, now the only thing I can pay attention to is the ache growing between my legs. I shift in my seat and press my thighs together to try and relieve some of the pressure. My phone buzzes again and I know it's going to be them trying to make things worse. But I can't control myself and I check the message.