I'm Not Yours

2. Into You

"Is this gonna happen? Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move, before I make a move."

You have got this.

You know you've got this.

Just show them what you can do. No one is expecting you to be as good as them. Just do your best and then get better.

You have what it takes.

You...really need to stop staring into the bathroom mirror.

I shake off the last bit of insecurities, splashing some water on my face before deciding to just get out there. I don't really know what to expect on my first day. I didn't really get to meet anyone besides Tony, Steve and Bucky. Tony messaged me to say I'd meet everyone else today in a group meeting, though he didn't really specify when that meeting would be.

For now I'm kind of hungry and really just want to get some breakfast. I text Bucky, asking him if there's some protocol to how breakfast works here. He assures me there isn't and that the kitchen is usually well stocked and I'm free to grab anything I wanted.

I walk out of my bathroom, and as I look out at my room, which is a huge mess, I can't help but smile. Last night with Steve was fun, and I can't wait to finish painting.

After thinking about it for a long time last night I realized that, while yes I need to focus on my training, I also can't be afraid of letting something happen. I've spent my entire life never putting any importance in being in a relationship. And while I don't regret it because it brought me here, I can't deny it's something I've kind of been longing for. I want to find something special like what my parents had. But I won't ever find it if I don't allow myself to be open to the idea.

I'm going to work on my skills and train with the team to better them, and if anything happens along the way then I'll let it happen.

And right now, I feel like it's happening with Steve. Yes Bucky and I have been flirting a bit, but I've had more of an emotional connection to Steve.

Granted it's only been a day so I can't really make an assumption yet. But I think I'm going to try and go for something. Maybe ask him out on a date. I know being from the 40's will make him old-fashioned, and he would want to be the one to ask me. But maybe he'll find my boldness refreshing. It would just be a simple date. A lunch really, just getting to know each other as friends, and seeing if the connection is really there and not in my head.

Still in my pajamas and hair in a loose ponytail above my head, I head out of my room and pass the other doors on my side of the building. As I think about the Avengers I know to be here I realize there's only 2 other women, Natasha Romanoff and Wanda Maximoff. I see their names on the doors as I pass them, and I can't help but feel like the new kid in a school, hoping that the cool girls like me.

I head downstairs, hoping this feeling of being in someone else's house goes away soon. Because with every step I take I feel like I'm intruding, like I'm about to make the wrong move and look stupid. It's been so long since I've felt like this, and it's not a feeling I want to keep.

When I get to the lower floor I make my way over to the kitchen, trying to remember the floor plan Tony sent me in an email. I find the living room, and right behind it is a small kitchen area. And, leaning against the island top, both drinking a cup of what I'm assuming is coffee, is Steve and Bucky.

"Hey." I say, getting a little too excited to see them. I think I'm just glad it's two people I know and not someone I would have to meet while in my pajamas.

The boys turn around, a little caught off guard to find me there.

"Hey." Bucky says, his eyes giving my tank top and shorts a little run down with a devilish smile.