Recovering McKenzy

Chapter 7

McKenzy:

I must have been sitting here staring into space for what seemed like forever. Did Ken really just tell me that he thought he was falling in love with me? Little ole me? I must be hearing things. Me and Kendrick had only known each other for a couple months and we had only been dating not that long, so to hear him say he was falling in love was a shocker. I knew I felt the same, but I had just gotten out of a 2 year long relationship. Was I really ready to try for love again? I don't think I will ever know, but I guess its now or never. I snapped back into reality to see Ken staring at me with big brown eyes full of hope. Ken was the sweetest guy I had ever met. He was caring and was always there when I needed him. He was willing to do anything to protect me from Shawn or anybody that seemed like a threat. He was gentle and always made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. So now I had to let go of my fear of getting hurt again and let my heart win. A smile appeared on my face as I leaned in to kiss Ken on the lips he immediately met me half way without hesitation. We kissed for a few minutes until he pulled away to speak.

" What was that for?" He asked with a smirk playing on his lips. " Bunny I'm serious about what I said some time ago. I know we haven't been together that long, but I know these feelings I get whenever I'm around you. My heart skips a beat and I get nervous and not too much shit makes me nervous. I can't wait to wake up in the morning just to see your face every morning. I dream about you and I know that sounded creepy and corny...." he said with a laugh that made me laugh. " Don't laugh at me I'm expressing my feelings for you, but I'm serious bunny. You give me a feeling ain't no other girl gave me before and I like that about you. I can be myself around you. That means doing all types of weird shit that makes you laugh and singing to you if it makes you happy. I'm in love with you and I just want you to feel the same" He said looking me deep in my eyes. I started to get butterflies from the words he just spoke and the sincere look in his eyes. We just stared at each other for a minute while my heart and brain kept debating on what to say. "McKenzie please say something" he whispered. I took a deep breath and decided to let my heart win.

" I think I'm falling for you too. You are somebody special to me and you are the sweetest. I don't want to rush anything with you. I'm willing to take that chance with you if you'll have me" I said feeling my heart in my throat. The smile on his face was priceless. I was beyond happy. He jumped on top of me kissing all over my face like a little puppy. I giggled trying to push him off me and stop his kisses, but he grabbed both my hands and pinned them over my head kissing me even more and licking my face a little which I though was weird, but it made me laugh even harder. Once he stopped I was out of breath and tired from laughing. I looked over at the clock that said 4:15 a.m. and knew my mom would be home any minute.

" I think licking your face was a little too much" He said out of breath and the biggest smile on his face.

" Its okay" I said laying down on my back looking up at the ceiling. Ken turned on his side facing me.

" What you thinking bout bunny?" he asked with a smirk.

" Nothing I'm just really happy. I don't remember being this happy when me and Shawn exchanged I love you's or even when we started dating officially" I said.

" I honestly don't see why you dated him and for 2 years damn bunny" he said with a confused look on his face.

" I thought he was cute and he was sweet to me. I don't know things just changed. Shawn was cute and funny and had his head in the right place, but I don't know what happened. I think it was more going on with him than just us not having sex. I honestly do because he never pressured me and he already knew what it was. I think something happened or was going on and he wanted to forget about it or hide his feeling with sex and when I wouldn't give it up it just sent him over the edge. He couldn't handle whatever it was" I said finally telling someone what I had been thinking. Ken just shook his head.