that one time it was uil

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i was forced into this 
but it was ok
because it gave me a chance
to be around you 

uil 
the day where the 
unvalidated nerds 
unite to compete? 

stress too much
for a piece metal 
that says your 
worth something 

anyhoo 
nerd competitions 
speeches, math, science, 
chess apparently, writing, etc etc  

i was unprepared
very unprepared 
me joining this competition  
was sprung on me 5 days before 

lucky for me 
i only had to do one thing
which was give a speech
that i hadnt memorized 

a speech on title ix 
one that i had only 
finished writing 
the night before 

and so i arrived at the school 
running off of some coffee 
a lack of sleep, adrenaline 
and misplaced confidence 

my mom practically threw me out of the car
and towards the buses 
that would be taking us
to some random school 

i looked pretty snazzy 
but never as snazzy as you
i saw you walking towards me 
in that goddamn suit 

my social anxiety had kicked in
i was waiting for you
so i wouldnt be alone on a bus
filled with people i mostly knew 

i know 
my logic 
as always 
is flawless 

the bus was
interesting
me feeling awkward
pulled out my phone 

and i managed to take 
the dumbest looking 
photos of you there 
ever were    

instead of super productive things
i could of been doing 
(LIKE MEMORIZING MY SPEECH) 
i was filling my storage with you 

i was laughing at you
smiling with you 
the sun was rising
and you looked so pretty 

sitting on that bus with you
is one of those things 
that i loved a bit 
too much 

and i said i didnt like you 



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