And then I met you:a generation loss story

Chapter three:the lab part two

  There is fear in their eyes, and confusion. I can see it. And I can then see the sadness and even heartbreak that comes with the fear and confusion of not knowing what's happening. They look more vulnerable now. They are not their usual calm self. At all.Their scared. He doesn't know what's going on. He doesn't know where he is. I can see and tell and I know that all by just looking at their face and their eyes and body language. He looks around."H-Huh..? Where..where am I..? What- what-?"
"ran are you okay? did something happen?" I put my hand out to touch them "ran are you okay? Talk to me!"
Before they were able to answer, I touched him and I saw more anxiety in his eyes. All that fear, confusion, sadness.they are so very anxious and I can see all of that right now in one human being.He flinches and then he takes a couple steps backwards, like I scared him.I've never seen him do that, either he's never this jumpy or anxious."I-I..I have no..!" He's not even in his usual calm, collected tone anymore. He seems panicked like I made him panicked or scared even.
I start to get worried and then I look at their mask again the red lights are still out so I try my best to figure out what's going on or at least to try to rap my head around everything "Ran it's me rose. your bestfriend.are you okay? tell me what is going on?" I word it like that because I can tell someone is up with him I just don't know what.
"R-Rose..? Rose..?" It takes him a moment but he still doesn't understand, and then suddenly their face becomes blank. Empty. And their eyes are wide.His voice is quiet, but they are somewhat calm now, almost a little shocked. And also there's not as much fear. But his eyes are still wide.He doesn't even know how to react. He has no idea what to say. Nothing makes sense anymore.
I slowly walked up to them with tears running down my face "ran do you.. do you not remember me? do you not remember anything we have been through?" I question because I don't really understand anything that's going on
"I-It's..It's-" they start to cry now too.It gets to the point where he breaks down and he can barely speak. Their voice is filled with emotions. He doesn't even know what to say. A lot of the fear and anxiety, and confusion and shock are still there.I can now see heartbreak and sadness in his eyes, too. It looks like that's what his emotions are mostly made of.
I watch as your mask lights back up and your back to your cool normal self and I start to kinda understand what's going on or at least what's happening "ran what's going on?" I ask you just in case you know because I only kinda understand
Their mask lights back up, and they take a deep breath. He seems to be recovering now. He takes a deep breath. And then he speaks, calmly, again. There's not that sadness in his voice anymore, not that heartbreak either. None of that emotional weight. There's just the calm, cool, and collected Ranboo that I know.It's scary, considering there was only minutes ago that he's a completely different person and now he's just himself like nothing happened like he wasn't confused a minute ago. "Nothing happened. Don't worry." They say calmly trying to calm me down
  "what?" he doesn't remember anything from when the mask lights were off he's now just back to his normal self that doesn't make any sense. I stare at you crying "never do anything like that again ran you scared me to death"
  There's a calmness and coldness to him; he's his normal self, still. I can tell, just by looking at him that something is off or something was off. I know he's not going to worry me again or at least I hope not.there's the fear that could happen again and I can't do anything to help him.He looks at my tears running down my face."I'm sorry, I-I'm so sorry!" Their voice is shaky but still calm as they say that I can tell that they are actually sorry for something they didn't do or at least I don't think they did it.
  "ran... I'm just confused one moment we're about to leave and break out of here and another your......" I pause and then I continue "you don't remember me and now I just.... I don't know what to do..... I'm confused and scared and worried I don't wanna lose you"
"You won't...!" He's certain of it, but his voice sounds slightly more cold. But he's still calm. But he tries to make me feel better but it doesn't help. "You won't lose me. I'm not going anywhere, ever. Trust me...I'd never let you lose me." They are trying their best to make me feel better
  I watch as he says that the mask lights go out again "let me guess i've lost you again! you don't remember me and your scared and I don't fully understand but why can't you just try to explain to me what is going on" tears run down my face as I realize that I'm losing my friend and all the memories we shared
He's quiet for a few seconds. Those few seconds, they seem so long.There's so much sadness, heartbreak, and fear once more. They start shaking.they feel so broken.There's so much more emotional weight on this one. It hurts so much more now than it did last time."I-I..." my voice seemed to only break him more and they are crying again.
"I wanna try to understand but it's like this isn't you or at least this isn't the you I know Ranboo I'm sorry okay but I just I'm scared I don't lose you or at least the you that I know"
"I-I'm the same person..I-I just-" their voice is filled with tears, and sadness. He's still shaking and crying.The fear and the sadness and the heartbreak is overwhelming him.He even shakes more, and he's crying. He can't control himself. He can't even calm himself down.
I slowly walk up to him "ran I don't want you to get hurt I Just... I wanna understand but your confused and I'm confused your scared and I'm fucking scared but your still my friend even if you don't remember me" I hug you trying to get you to calm down
He flinches as I hug him. His eyes are wide and he's silent.Then they hug me back, and their whole body is shaking.he's scared, and he's confused.I can feel that his mind is just going 100 miles per minute, as if he couldn't focus on one thing.His face is blank, but his eyes show so much emotion. So much the fear, the sadness, the pain, the heartbreak it's overwhelming.he is hurting and I can tell this is not my Ranboo
"we will figure this out together okay? even if you never remember me or get your memories back I will still help you okay?" I squeeze them tight as my heart is breaking on the inside
  He hugs a little tighter, squeezing me. "Okay." That's all they say. He has no choice but to accept it. He doesn't want to.he has no say in the matter.His hug is tight really tight, and for the first time, I can feel the actual pressure from it.In all the pain,I can actually feel some comfort. Like, he's hurt, but I can also tell that he cares. He's still my friend. But he's just not the same person. Not at the moment, anyway.
I put my head on their shoulder and tears just keep rolling down my face "it's never gonna be the same..."
"I-It's going to be different, but..." It's clear that they are trying to find the bright side.  He's trying to help me feel better but it's not really helping. "It's-It's going to be okay."
But he doesn't sound positive. Not at all. "We'll get through this.." they try to sound confident, but it falls flat. And his voice gets a little quiet."Just..just..we'll get through this!"
"We will try our best..." I put on a fake smile even though he can't see my face. I then say in the most positive way that I can"I'm rose.. by the way..." starting over it's sad but I have to do what I have to do til I figure out what's going on here what happening with ranboo
"Rose...Rose.." he smiles slightly. "Nice name." He sounds like he's trying to be positive for me again. "You're..you're really nice." They speak more confidently now, more sure of himself again. He sounds more himself again. But still, cold, still the sad undertones. But it still makes me feel a little better to hear them speak a bit more like he does normally."We'll get through this, I promise." He smiles again."Thank you"
"your welcome I should actually be thanking you..." my fake smile then fades as I don't let go of you and the hug thinking about the fact that you don't know the reason why I'm thanking you "thanks I um... Ranboo is a pretty nice name as well" I breath
"Thank you." Their voice is a bit more warm, and calm now. It sounds like he actually appreciates you complimenting him. "That's very- um- you know."He sounds genuine, for the most part."It's..nice to meet you. Really. It is." He smiles again, and that felt like classic Ranboo. Just a small thing, just the way he said it. I can tell that, in that one second, for that one second, he feels slightly better.
  I back up from the hug my face all red from crying "I I can't.. it's too hard I can't start again" I back up from him wiping my eyes
There's a flash of emotion in their eyes. He stops smiling. His voice goes cold again. He looks shocked. But then there's pain behind his eyes.he is tearing up again. His eyes are wide, as if he doesn't want to believe it but he can't, anyway.There is more heartbreak in his eyes so much more.He's breaking down, once more, and he can't stop it this time. "W-We'll work this out! I promise we'll work it out!"
I turn away as I do his mask lights back up for the last time or at least it should be the last time this happens or at least I hope it's the last time this happens"it's too hard"  I say as I think I'm talking to the other Ranboo the one who forgot the one who was scared the one who wasn't him
He's silent for a second as I look away. He is still tearing up. Then, after those seconds. His eyes go blank. His face becomes blank.His eyes are empty. His voice, cold again. Calmly, he speaks. "No." He seems a little determined now. "No." His voice is cold again, and he shakes his head. So much pain is behind it. So much hurt. He can't even say anything but 'no' but from the voice alone I can I kinda tell that this is my Ranboo.
"ran.... is that you the real you? do you remember me?" I quickly turn around and I see that their mask is lit up again  "please please tell me you remember me.." I look into your eyes scared for the answer
He's silent, and he's thinking.There's so much more emotion in his eyes."Rose.." He sounds so happy to see me again. His voice has a sort of warmth to it, again. It sounds like he's glad to see you. And that's Ranboo. I just have the real Ranboo back.* "Yes"His face lit up with so much emotion. He's actually smiling again."Yes, Rose."
"ran I don't know what's happening but I'm scared and I don't wanna lose you" I run up and I hug you tightly wrapping my arms around you
"I'll never let that happen! Ever." I can hear the determination in their voice. He's certain of it."No matter what happens- I won't lose you. Okay, Rose..?" He's got a bit more emotion in his voice again.He hugs you back, tightly."Rose, it's okay." He's trying to calm me down, to reassure me. "Everything's going to be okay. I promise." He still sounds determined, and certain of himself.
"do you not remember anything from when your mask was off.." I say slowly trying not to worry you I then squeeze you tightly not wanting to let go of the hug and not wanting to lose you again
  He shakes his head. "No. Everything's a blur. But we can figure this out. We can figure this out..together." He tries to sound more positive."Okay?" His voice is as calm as ever, and there's a lot of conviction behind the words, as if he knows what he's talking about.I'm feeling a little better now.There's a hint of hope in me.It's Ranboo. Of course I can trust him he won't ever let you down, nothing bad will happen.
"yeah definitely together that's what we have been doing this whole time" a small smile comes across my face "I'm just happy it's you!" I let the hug loosen up
He smiles.there's so much more emotion in his voice and in his smile."I-I'll try to get this figured out. I promise." His smile becomes even brighter, and his eyes are more calm.
"we will figure it out together but first and foremost we gotta figure out how we're gonna get out of this lab or whatever we're in" I laugh and I break from the hug smiling at him "come on let's go!" I start walking "come on slowpoke!" I laugh
He follows you. He's still smiling, and he even chuckles as I say come on slowpoke! He's laughing with me, and he even seems more relaxed than he has been. "I'm not the slow one." There's a joking tone in his voice.He's just got the smallest, most tiniest hint of his old humor.That humor is the Ranboo he was, before.