POISONOUS//lashton au

Three

Luke managed to calm down. It took him a while and he was a mess. He hadn't cleaned up himself or the coffee on his floor that would probably stain. He sat against his door with his face hidden in his knees and his hands in his hair. There were still tears on his face that he hadn't bothered to wipe away but he didn't care.

As he started to doze off, there was a knock on his door. Luke's head shot up and for a small moment, he got the worst feeling that somehow Ashton had found him and was at his door. That thought went away when he remembered it was Monday. His two best friends, Michael and Calum, were coming over for dinner.

Luke kicked his backpack further away from the door along with the spilled cup of coffee. He stood up and pulled open the door to reveal his friends grinning with a pizza in hand. Their smiles immediately faded away when they spotted Luke. Their faces soon read concerned.

The door was pushed open wider as they stepped inside and pushed past Luke. The two boys looked down at the floor where the coffee was beginning to stain then back up at Luke who recognized he must have looked absolutley terrible.

Michael quickly set the box in his hand on the table then focused his attention back on his devastated friend.

"Luke? What's going on?" Luke bit his lip as he tried to fight back the tears that once again came to his eyes. But with no prevail. Tears glossed over his eyes and Michael led him into the living room and over to the couch. Luke collapsed into the couch and put his face in his hands again. Calum dissappeared momentarily then came back with cleaning supplies in hand and began to clean the coffee off of the floor.

Luke's whole body shook as he cried. Michael had a hand on his back and patted it comfortingly. Calum finished cleaning then sat on the other side of Luke and patted his knee.

"It's okay man. Let it out." Michael said.

Luke slowly began to calm down. He pulled his face away from his hands and wiped at his eyes, sniffling a couple times.

"You okay?" Calum asked. Luke shook his head. "Yeah I figured. Stupid question, sorry. Do you want to tell us what's up?" Luke's body trembled a little bit before nodding. He took a shaky breath and then,

"I saw Ashton."

Calum's leg stopped shaking. Michaels hand froze. Luke's heart stopped.

It had been a long time since Luke had ever said his name. He'd thought it. Almost every day he thought it. But it had been over two years since he'd said it. And it hurt. It was like another stab to the heart. Luke sighed at this thought. How many times can a heart be damaged before it stops for good? Too many apparently.

"You saw Ashton?" Calum's voice was hard. Not friendly at all. Luke nodded.

"Where? Did he see you? Did he talk to you? I swear to god if he did anything to hurt you again I will not hesitate to wring his neck." Michael's voice rose considerably but Luke shook his head.

"No, he didn't talk to me. I was on my way home from work when I saw him across the street. I guess I kind of froze a little. And then he saw me and we both kind of stared at each other. I got out of there to avoid confrontation."

"Shit Luke. God I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine how it felt to see him after all these years." Calum said. He sounded hurt. For Luke.

"It felt like getting my heart ripped out of my chest then ripped apart. Again." Luke's tone remained flat like it usually did.

Michael and Calum shared a look of concern before looking back at Luke who kept his gaze on his hands.

"I'm so sorry that happened to you Luke. You don't deserve that. You don't deserve what he did to you." Michael informed him.

Luke shrugged. "We were both born and raised here. We were bound to see each other again.Its not like I should be shocked."

"Are you, going to be okay?"

Luke appreciated that his friends cared about him but he didn't want to talk about Ashton. So he avoided the question.

"Guys I really don't want to talk about this okay? It happened, I had a bit of a mental breakdown, there's nothing I can do about that. Please just drop it and let's eat before the pizza gets too cold."

"Yeah. Sure." They both agreed as Michael reached for the pizza and set it in the middle of all three of them. "As long as you're okay."

~

In the middle of trying to be Tumblr as I reread The Fault In Our Stars while drinking coffee in a cute mug and wearing a cute pair of sweats with my fair in a ponytail while it rains and listening to Ed Sheeran

See you next week

-Ash