POISONOUS//lashton au

Four

Michael and Calum left two hours later. They were hesitant to leave Luke by himself after what happened but he insisted he was fine.

Except he wasn't.

Seeing Ashton again brought up memories. Memories that he used to think could never be bad memories. But he was wrong. Because they crushed him. Those memories were amazing while he got to experience them. But then the option to make more was taken away from him. Ashton was taken away. Ashton left him. His first love. His only love. Left him. For three years of his life, Luke was in pain And even still three years later he was still in pain. Luke still loved Ashton. It's not like he could all of a sudden just stop loving him. It didn't matter that he broke Luke's heart. Ashton was the first person Luke ever loved. You can't just forget that.

As Luke watched his friends walk away from his house, he sighed. And he thought back to the day he met Michael.

One year ago, when Luke started his first year at college, Michael was in the same econ class as Luke. Michael noticed Luke sitting behind him with his sad, tired eyes and his lack of communication with anyone. Michael decided he needed to befriend the sad blonde boy. Luke was, of course, hesitant at first but after realizing Michael wasn't all that bad, Luke decided it wouldn't hurt to become friends with the loud happy boy. When Luke became close enough with Michael, he told him about Ashton. Michael had never met Ashton before but he hated him. He hated what happened to Luke.

Calum knew Ashton. Calum knew Ashton before Luke did. Luke and Calum had been best friends for 10 years at that point. When they were in grade 9 at the age of 14, Calum met Ashton who was in grade 11. Ashton became friends with Calum because he thought he was a nice guy. Calum introduced Ashton and Luke and the three began hanging out. It was also around this time Luke was discovering his sexuality. So for two years Luke, Ashton, and Calum remained friends. Until the day of Ashton's graduation when he and Luke were alone and Ashton kissed him. After that, the only difference between the third boy, was the third boy was always a third wheel. But after Ashton left, Calum hadn't spoken to him since.

Most people wouldn't believe it, but Luke had improved a lot since he'd been left behind. Sometimes the positive is hard to find but all of Luke's family and his two best friends chose to see emotionless as better than angry and depressed. Luke however, saw it as just one more day passed by. He didn't show emotions as much. He tried to smile for the people in his life but they knew it wasn't real. They appreciated that he tried for them but it was hard for him to do everyday. So when he actually let out his emotions on a day like that one, Michael and Calum felt slightly better that Luke was letting it all out. Of course they hated to see their best friend in pain but it was better than keeping it all bottled up inside which was what he had been doing for the most part.

After three years though, Luke finally seemed to be getting back on track. He had an idea of what he wanted to do with his life, he was doing things again. Maybe not going out with friends but it was his second year in college and he had a job. He was getting back on his feet. And everything could have been fine.

Life could have carried on for Luke. He could have continued to get even better. Maybe moved on eventually.

But seeing Ashton again deemed to set him back to the beginning. He felt like he was 17 again. Back to when Ashton first left him. He didn't even know how to express the pain he felt. Everything hurt. His heart pounded in his chest and his head spun. Nothing felt real anymore and he didn't know how to even deal with his pain. So he cried. He cried when it first happened and he cried again. Three years later.

Luke sat in front of his couch with his legs crossed and his hands in his lap. Tears came to his eyes and they fell down his cheeks. But he didn't make any noise. And the proof that he'd been crying was still on his cheeks when he woke up on the floor at four in the morning.

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This chapter is really short and for that I apologize.

I think all of them should be longer now.

I also have this on ao3. My username is lucas_homo and yeah

Anyways I have one week of summer left and I'm going to cry.

ALSO

Thursday I will begin posting a new fanfic. It's Lashton. It's called Yours, Mine & Ours and you should read it. It's gonna be a little shorter than this and TIOS. Please read it.

Have a lovely week. Love you guys.

-ash