Fear Itself [ A Shoey Fanfic ]

|| Joey's P.O.V ||

"WELL?" i asked anxiously as meghan plodded into the waiting room. she approached me slowly and stopped in front of me.

"meghan..."

"he...he remembered me." she stuttered. she looked as if she was going to bawl at any given moment.

"that's good!" i exclaimed noisily, bringing her into an embrace.

thank god. we're finally getting somewhere. it's not over. we aren't screwed after all. meghan pushed away, tears streaming down her face.

"why are you sad? he remembered us!" i was confused. why is this an unhappy moment for her?

the biggest heartbreak was what came next.

"does he remember me at all?" i choked out. i was scared as hell for the response.

she shook her head, wiping the salt dripping from her eyes.

my heart dropped to my stomach. after all i did for him. the moments we shared...how is this even possible.

"im so sorry..." she mumbled before rushing out of the hospital, trying to keep her composure.

i slumped back into the shitty waiting room chairs. im starting to get a headache. im hungry, i haven't slept in a freaking week...

my YouTube channel. nothing has been posted in two weeks. i rushed out to my car and grabbed my vlogging camera, turning it on and walking around the hospital.

"WELL HELLO THERE EVERYONNEE"

my voice was raspy. i was getting sick. i could just feel it.

"today we are here at the...mother effin hospital!"

my throat started to swell and i felt like i was going to puke.

"i haven't been posting much on my here channel because ive been soo busy with all sorts of good stuff!"

my eyes were red and puffy. my nose started to stuff. i knew i was moments away from bawling.

"well all my chickdeeanyas...ill catch up with you all a little bit later."

i clicked the button on the camera and shriveled into a little ball on the sidewalk outside of the Los Angeles hospital. the love of my life has no recollection of me, ive been wearing the same clothes for three days.

im sick of all this bullshit drama. i want to go home and work on my youtube channel and play with wolf. i want to be happy again.

so i made one of the worst decisions in my life.