Fear Itself [ A Shoey Fanfic ]

|| Shane's P.O.V ||

i woke up sweating. i was alone. i tried to sit up, but as i attempted to prop myself up on my right arm, i fell back immediately, grabbing my arm and gritting my teeth. the pain was unbearable. a couple of tears shot through my eyes.

"ah shit."

i muttered

there was an I.V placed through the skin on my right elbow crease. well now i know. the beeping of the heart monitor was unbearable. i threw my left fist down on the bed sheet.

"turn that damn thing off!"

i screamed through my teeth.

i wiped my eyes carefully from the tears of pain i had from stretching my arm out.

i was hungry. but i was nauseas. i was cold, but had a high fever.

i tried to reach for my phone on the white table next to the bed, but it was too far away for my injected arm. i sighed and pretended to hold my phone high above face with my left hand. i smiled and continued, pretending to press the on button of my phone.

"hey guys!"

i had to stop to cough. my voice was raspy and dry.

"well, as you can see, im in a very uncomfortable hospital bed where-"

i had to stop and cough again.

"im being held hostage on dozen of pain meds."

i turned the fake camera towards my arm. i let the invisible device sit there as i watched the fluid shoot into my arm. i forgot that i was trying to record and just curled up over on my side.

where is Joey? did he just leave me here? to die? did he give up hope that'd i'd live and go home? is he yearning with Meghan?

my head began to throb. i grabbed my forehead with both hands and winced.

i began to cry. i really thought Joey and i had something. maybe he just left me to get a drink or something. there is a pang of guilt in my stomach. it knots itself and curls, making my stomach pound. i feel my heart drop into my stomach. it burns.

i clutched my knees, holding them as my stomachache passed.

"wait. what the hell? what time is it?"

i looked around for a clock. nowhere to be seen. no wonder. i wouldn't exactly appreciate knowing what time i was due for medication.

i laid back and fell asleep. ironically, i was thinking about Joey as i feel asleep. weird, right?

i hope he is still here. please. let him be here.