The Blood Puppeteer { BNHA Villains x fem!OC } - Book 1

44 - Constant Regret

The shower was quick. I feared the walls were going to be stained red with so much blood. There was no thought after the shower. I threw on some comfy clothes and collapsed onto the bed. I didn't have time to cry or think, I just passed out.

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I don't know how long I was passed out, but it didn't feel like long enough. Sunlight peeked through my curtains making my head sting. It wasn't a headache anymore, but it felt no better than before.

Sitting up in bed I grabbed my phone off the nightstand. The time read 1:03pm. Groaning, I closed the curtains hoping to get rid of the sunlight peeking through. My throat felt dry and scratchy. Glancing around the room, I felt empty.

Standing up I teetered a moment before steadying myself. I needed to get some water. Cold air pricked my skin as I entered the hallway. Huddling in Dabis jacket I took a couple steps into the hall.

Pausing at Amora and Eris rooms the morning played in my head. All the blood, so much. Amora laying there lifeless and Eri... she looked so scared. My head spun, I felt like I was going to throw up. Quickly I rushed towards the hallway bathroom. Opening up the toilet seat I hurled.

"Jinx?" a familiar hoarse voice caught my ear.

Groaning, I kept my head over the toilet. I felt like shit. Warmth surrounded me and I felt my hair being pulled back as I leaned there.

"I told you she was sick." A scratchy voice caught my ear from the entrance of the bathroom.

I was too sick to be embarrassed at this point. It felt like my stomach had been turned inside out. Sighing I flushed the toilet and sat back. Dabi caught my eye as he stood next to me, holding my hair back in a loose ponytail. Pity and concern was in his expression. Shigaraki stood in the doorway with his arms crossed. He looked annoyed per usual, but there was a small hint of concern.

"How are you feeling, Jinx?" Dabi questioned releasing my hair.

"Like shit." I mumbled standing up. I wasn't sure why Dabi was here. Maybe Shigaraki called him or he decided to stop by and check on me. Either way I didn't really care.

Leaning on the sink I looked into the bathroom mirror. There was more white. At this point there seemed to be more white strands of hair than black. The sight made me sick. Turning on the sink I tried to wash out the puke taste. My vision blurred and the water looked red. Panicked, I stepped away from the sink. The water was clear.

Amoras lifeless eyes were clear in my head as well as the pool of blood. My eyes started to tear up as I thought about her. Shigaraki doesn't think she'll wake up. But she's woken up before...

"Jinx?" Dabis voice caught my ear.

Swirling around I hugged onto him, hiding my face in his chest as tears silently streamed down my face. I didn't want Shigaraki seeing me cry. Not over such a silly thing. He has to be wrong. Amora will come back. She has to.

Warmth engulfed me as Dabi wrapped his arms around me. "What happened exactly?" Dabi stated, it sounded directed towards Shigaraki.

"I told you everything I know." Shigaraki responded, there was no hostility or annoyance in his tone.

My head felt empty. My body was weak. A numbing of some kind started to surface as I cried. I didn't know what to do.

"Jinx." Dabi mumbled gently pulling my head back so that I was forced to look at him. "How can I help?"

Sniffling, I tried to hide my face again, but he wouldn't let me. I glared at him, but he wouldn't let me hide no matter how mad I looked at him. "Amora." I mumbled my voice sounded small as I wiped tears from my face.

He released my head and I hid my face again.

"Where is Amora?" He questioned Shigaraki.

"I told you she-" Dabi cut him off, "I'm aware she's gone. Where's her body?"

This made me push myself away from Dabi. The numbness subsided as a short wave of anger filled me. I glared at him with hate. "She's not dead!" I snapped punching his arm. "She's going to wake up..." I mumbled to myself. They're both wrong. They have to be wrong...

"See what I mean?" Shigaraki stated.

I glared at him before snapping, "She's coming back!"

"You saw what I saw Jinx. What makes you think she's coming back from that?" He questioned, once again no anger or annoyance, only pity.

"She came back before. She'll do it again." I stated, my voice quivering.

"Your brother's quirk brought her back. We both heard her explain that to you. So tell me, did you see him there?"

"Shigaraki-" Dabi started but I interrupted him.

"No... but- but that boy came back! My brother didn't revive him. There's other ways-"

"Overhaul revived that boy Jinx. Nobody around you and Amora had the capability of healing or reviving somebody at the time she was killed." He snapped sternly.

"B- I-" I couldn't get any words out. He was right. He was right and there was nothing I could argue. Oh god, I got my sister killed. Tears started up again as I stared at Shigaraki stuck. His expression softened as he realized he had won.

"Jinx." He mumbled.

Silently and quickly I shoved past him leaving the crowded bathroom. Entering my bedroom I shut and locked the door behind myself. Sliding down the door I started sobbing.

I got Amora killed. All I wanted to do was make Eri safe. That's all I wanted. How did this happen? How did I let this happen? Eri was fine. Amora wasn't even 100% on board with getting rid of Eri if Eri didn't want to. Amora was upset with me. She died upset with me. I- She died mad. Oh my god I got my sister killed again...

My thoughts spiraled. Breathing became difficult, it felt like the room was spinning as I started to panic. A knock on the door caused me to freeze.

"Jinx." Dabis voice caught my ear, "I know you aren't doing well. Can I come in?"

I stayed dead silent.

A muffled sigh caught my ear, "Okay... I'll leave you alone for now. But I want you to know I'll be out here if you need me." There was a short pause before muffled footsteps caught my ear as he walked off.

Curling up as small as I could I just cried.