my fault | nicholas leister

capitulo trece

I didn't hear Nick wanting to ask me a question about my father.
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The next morning I woke up and found Nick sleeping next to me.

Soon he turned around, looked into my eyes and said: „Good Morning Freckles, Are you okay?"

I nodded my head: „Didn't you say you couldn't control yourself when you're near me?"

He smiled and looked at me and my lips: „I should go before everyone in the house wakes up."

I got closer: „Yeah."

We looked into each others eyes when we suddenly heard a knock.

We sat up in the bed and saw Will standing in the doorway.

Nick tried to explain but failed and Will said: „It's Maggie. She's in the hospital."

Nick looked at him in shock: „Maggie? What happened?"

Will answered: „I think you should go right away."

He walked outside closing the door behind him.

We were now on our way to the room Maggie was in. Nick had quickly steps and I had to run to keep up with him.

We walked inside the room and Nick walked besides Maggie's bed holding her hand.

I stood inside the door frame until Maggie saw me and said: „Is that Rowan? She doesn't seem so mean."

Nick looked at me: „No she's not. Once you get to know her she's incredible."

I looked at him with a soft smile on my face. Soon a doctor came in and Nick and I switched positions. Nick greeted her and while they talked to another, I sat besides Maddie and she told me: „He's the best brother in the whole world. Isn't he?"

I laughed at that and took a small look at him: „Yeah. Once you get to know him, he is. But you'll always be his favorite right."

She smiled at me. We talked for a while, before Nick and I had to leave.

We were sitting in the car, in comfortable silence. I looked at him as he said: „We're already getting close to the house."

His grip on the circuit was very hard and I placed my hand over his looking at him.

He suddenly drove the car of the road and looked at me.

I asked ironic: „What are you doing? Am I getting kicked out of the car again?"

After I finished my sentence, he unbuckled his seat belt and kissed me.

I griped in his hair and he broke our kiss: „This is all my fault, Rowan."

A tear feel down my cheek as I disagreed.

He spoke again: „Instead of leaving you stranded that day, I should've kissed you."

He gave me a little kiss again.

He spoke with concern: „If I'd known earlier about your father, It really hurts knowing you're scared of me. It hurts so much. But you know I'd never hurt you. You know that."

I looked at him sad: „They've already caught us Nick, so I guess the apologies are pointless."

He answered: „If loving you is a sin, then fine, I'll accept the punishment. Any punishment in the world, but your mom has to understand."

I said: „No. I don't want to hurt her. What she's found with your dad is incredible. My mother finally has something good. We can't ruin that."

I looked away but he pulled me towards him: „No. If these were our last kisses I couldn't bear it."

I shaked my head: „Trust me. Our kisses are internal."

We kissed again with everything we had.

I said: „If this is going to be our last time, why don't we also make it our first time too?"

Now we were kissing each other on the beach. We took our clothes off, and he looked into my eyes pushing me in the sand.

He was leaning over me, kissing me.

Than he started tracing kisses down my body and I shivered a little.

He came back up and kisses me and as the water came to our feet we laughed together.

As he took out a condom and rolled it over I stopped him: „Wait."

He asked concerned: „I everything okay?"

I smiled at him: „Yeah."

He smiled at me: „Yeah."

We looked into each others eyes and I said: „Just promise me we will never forget this night."

He answered with a smile: „How could you ever doubt it?"

We kissed each other as he slowly pushed inside of me. I whimpered as he gripped in my hair. He slowly became faster and soon I started tracing my fingers up and down on his back.

We turned around so I sat in his lap. I moved faster and he helped me by grapping my waist.

After a while we came to an and and lay down powerless.

After we woke up we walked on the beach and he throwed me over his shoulders.

We sat on rocks and talked about our first kiss before kissing again.

I wanted to make the most of the little time we had left, and he stopped me by saying: „I'm out of condoms."

I looked at him upset, and we made our way to the gas station.