Too Friendly Sonic x fem reader IDW

Chapter 27

TW: Mentions of suicide.

Amy's pov

It's been 3 weeks since the metal virus was cured and unfortunately 3 weeks of depression for Y/n. The disappearance of Sonic had really taken a toll on her mental state. Poor Y/n had been brought home and hasn't left since. Everyone tried to get her out and cheer her up but she wouldn't move. Her eyes didn't have their natural glow anymore. They were dull and lifeless. She's so upset that she stopped smiling. One of the things that make her, herself is her smile. I can't exactly blame her. Sonic was the reason she always smiled. 

Sonic told me when they were younger that she'd practically do anything he asked as she felt required to listen to him, so he told her to always smile for him. Sonic really loved to see her smile so that's why he asked it. Y/n obeyed and until now, there wasn't a moment that I can remember where she hasn't smiled atleast once. Its like her personality dropped. Its like they went along with Sonic. Y/n can't even take care of herself. 

We all have to take turns to make sure Y/n takes care of herself. Even Shadow pitched in. I know out there somewhere, Sonic is alive. I know it! During the war Y/n could feel that Sonic was alive but now, she believes he's left her. Y/n had stuck hope into me so I'm gonna try to do the same!

Elsewhere

Shadow's POV

Three weeks, three weeks and Y/n still hasn't been herself. I make sure to regularly visit her to make sure she doesn't do anything dumb like last time. How can I ever forget what I saw? It's been haunting me ever since. The fact that a once cheerful girl with no intention of dying soon decided to try and take her own life. All because of that blue idiot. I understand losing someone dear to me but I've never thought of killing myself. I still think about what would've happened if I wasn't there in time.

Ever since that day I've had to make Y/n talk to me cause she won't open up with anyone else. She's told me she's been having these terrible thoughts. She said they were really familiar. It's how she felt when being with her parents. The voices in her head sounded like her mother who kept telling her to end herself. She so badly wanted to end her suffering, so she'd stop hearing them. I obviously talked her out of it but I still get scared seeing her with any sharp objects. I have grown fond of her and she reminds me a lot of Maria. I can't loose her, atleast not yet. I swear that blue idiot better be alive so I can beat his sorry butt for making Y/n so sad because he's gone. 

Elsewhere in Y/n's room.

Y/n is sitting sadly on the bed.

Y/n's pov

Another day, another nightmare. Why can't my suffering just end? You've already taken the person I love most in this world so why are you still trying to make me suffer universe? What have I done to be suffering like this? Night after night I get another nightmare, they keep replaying his death. Just even the mention of him makes me want to cry. Day after day I keep hearing her voice.  I keep hearing her. 

She won't shut up. She's always cackling at me like the witch she is. She just loves to see me suffer. She keeps telling me to just kill myself. Saying my friends never cared and neither did he. At one point I actually tried to do so but Shadow stopped me. At least he didn't notice the markings on my wrists. The sweet pain everytime I cut myself. It didn't hurt, it felt pleasurable in a way. What I would give to have him back though. 

I didn't get to tell him that I loved him, and the fact that he loves me makes it hurt even worse. If only I stayed back with the gang. Then maybe he wouldn't of had to save me. Then we could of been together and lived out our lives. But my stupid butt went along with his plan to help him and that got him dead. The only thing that's practically keeping me sane is just remembering our lips touching in super form. I would of been so flustered if it weren't the end of the world. Just remembering that kiss is making me blush right now.