Mama Find Me

Chapter 10

Stella's POV

"Lets have a talk." I pulled her out from under the table. Glad that she didn't fight me with it. Once I got her out I picked her up and carried her on my hip and go to the couch. I put her down though she don't want to and then she whined.

"I need you to sit here for me please and try to calm down." This little girl is breaking my heart. I can't put her on time out. I don't have the right to do it.

"Nu nu nuuuu t-t-time out." Aia tried to make out a word.

"Sweetie, I'm not putting you in time-out." I told her.

"Pe-pease don leave me. H'od me pease, h'od pease?" she begs as she make a grabby hands at me.

"I know, I'm not going anywhere." I just reached and hold both of her hands.

"Can you sit here for awhile? Can you do that for me?" I asked her while I sit down to get a wipes from her bag to clean her face from tears and snot.

"We-wes." She said as she continuesly sobbed while nodding her head.

"Can you blow for me?" I hold a tissue paper on her nose.

"Good girl!" I smiled at her

"May I look at your hands. Did you hurt yourself?" Letting me see her left hand to check it. Thankful that it's not bad just a little redness that can be fix with an ointment.

"Oh okay not that bad." I reassured her as the little girl keeps on sobbing.

"We'll sit here for awhile okay?" I asked her.

"okaysss. " she now sniffling.

I give her enough time to calm down. Aia needs sometimes to get herself back, she's been going through a lot lately as Alice had told me. What Aia didn't know is me and Alice had been talking about her. After the incident of her slipping in front me. Aia has been not her self, her little self. Alice noticed a drastic change on her behavior. She even called me once to her office to speak with me personally about the little girl. She's needing help. I have no idea how can I be of help. She's been observing the little girl those past days and whenever she mentioned me to Aia she reacts like she's getting too worried. I don't understand why would she react like that but Alice told me thats the very first time she saw her like that. It's like she's scared of being scolded by me. And this afternoon Alice phoned me to keep an eye for Aia since she's coming here at the office. She just wanna be sure the little girl will not do anything bad. I didn't expect Aia that she'll have that attitude.

"Are you feeling much better?" I asked her as I try to get most hair out of her face and tucked it in at the back of her ears. She nods then another tears is about to fall.

"No more tears, Aia. It's okay." reassuring her.

"Can you tell me what has gotten you so worked up and lashed out to those people?" I said calmly to her.

"I need you look at me? I wanna see your eyes sweetie." Speaking to her as calm as I can, convincing her so she'll be comfortable enough to talk though she only looked away.

"Why do you have to act like that in front of those people?" I know they did something that upsets you but you didn't need to be that disrespectful." I continue to talked but not able to get any answers. I think I'm asking too much question.

"Okay, I think you're not ready yet." I told her as I slowly nod my head.

"You want some food?" Changing the topic but she just stared at me and I still got no answer.

"Do you want me to leave you and I'll come back later?" another question I asked.

She suddenly bawled crying her heart out. I was shocked. From no sound to the most heart breaking cry I ever heard.

"Oh sweetie. No need to cry, Okay, okay I'm staying he-" she cuts me and says-

"No leave me nu nu." she said while she cried harder.

"I'm sorry sweetie, come here, you want me to hold you?" this girl making me feel bad. I didn't understand what she wanted me to do in the first place. That is to hold her.

"Oh I'm so sorry." I coo and try to sooth her.

I hold her tightly and cradle her like a baby as I sit with her on the couch. She changed positioned by sitting on my lap and buried her face to my chest as she continues to cry harder. I let her cried her heart out as I hold her carefully and give her back rubs to help her to get calm. I don't know what's making her like this. I am hoping she talk to me about it. After some time her cries turns into sniffling.

I giggle at her when I see her wiping another set of snot and tears to my favorite lavender blouse. Usually I'll get piss by it but I don't know I didn't feel any of that when I saw her doing it. I just chuckled at her.

"Are you ready to talk now?" I lift up her head with both of my hands so she can look at me. I give her a kiss on the forehead to let her feel everything's fine.

"I'm scared, confused, I don't know-" is the only answer I got from her.

I let her sit down properly so we can talk facing each other. I wanna know what's making her scared.

"I want you to be real honest with me, Aia. I won't be able to help you if you will not tell me all about the things that scares you. This might be hard but I need you to be brave. This might be a little confusing for you and me too but I promise I will listen and will not judge you. I know that we just know each other just recently but I promised to your Uncle that I'll be as understanding as I can and it means that includes you." I explained myself to the little girl so she can open up even for a bit.

"I'm scared that you'll not gonna like me after what happened at lunch last time. And, and that you will not gonna talk to me anymore and, and I can't make friends with you" she said in one breath and she's obviously out of her little space.

I'm shocked. "Why would you think like that?" I feel so sorry for her. Is that all what's making her like this?

"Because I'm a little." saying while looking down.

"And what's wrong with you being a little?" I asked her again.

The little girl bring her head up and looked at me. And say "You dont think I'm weird?" she asked me very surprised.

"Definitely not Sweet." cupping her face.

"I may not be able to understand it at first but I did search for it and I did look for answer and I totally understand what's happening. I'm so okay with you being little. And I also wanted to help if you needed me I just don't know how." I tell her.

She stands up and suddenly throw herself at me then hugs me tightly.

"Thank you so much! Thank you, thank you!!! I'm so happy you still like me." telling how happy she is.

"You're most welcome, sweetie." I said to her.

"But please listen to me. I don't like what you did back there in the pantry. I know you got hurt and upset by it. But when a person apologizes and it's really showing they dont mean what happen. Try to be more understanding too. I don't want you to have the attitude again. Are we clear? I lectured her.

"I understand, I'm so sorry." she apologized.

"Now, would you like an ice cream?" I asked her. And she gives me her biggest nod.

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- Liszt xxx