Mama Find Me

Chapter 15

Stella's POV

I woke up to a chirping sound of the birds. It's a nice day today, the sun is shining and I can see the brightness outside through the see-through curtains, I forgot to fully do the curtains last night. After a long night with constant raining, finally it has ended. I slept good though I felt a weight above me. I look down and see Aia is still on top of me, I smiled at the sight and hold her tightly to me and kiss her head. I loved a moment like this.

I was startled when I suddenly feel a sucking motion just right above my left breast. I slowly removed her from top of me causing her to whine from the lost of contact on my skin. I lay her down and tries to put her to sleep once again it's past 7'oclock and we had a rough night so more sleep will help a little bit. I put pillows around the girl to secure she won't roll over and fall. I get up from the bed to get ready for the day. I don't know what I should do first, I need more time to think.

I enter the bathroom to brush my teeth first. I was a little bit surprised to see there's two bruises above my left breast. My mistake on wearing this nighties, I forgot I wasn't sleeping in my house. I freshen up that quick and get dress. After getting out of the bathroom I go to Aia's little room to get few things before she wakes up. I felt her diaper earlier so I need to change her immediately. I make sure this time I have pacifier and I get two to be sure as well I have one near me that I'll easily reach whenever it's needed. I should not forget that. Checking I have a diaper, wet wipes, baby powder and her paci I run back to the guest room.

"Good morning, Aia! Did you had a good sleep?" I greeted her once I reached the bed. She's stretching like a baby holding up her two arms and her face is being squished as she stretched. Oh she's too adorable. I pull her through her legs to get her near on the edge of the bed.

"Do I have a baby in my hand this morning?" I coos at the little girl. She just babble words and she smiled at me. Her fist goes into her mouth and she sucked it with eagerness but eventually getting irritated after trying it few times. I put a pacifier in her mouth and that calms her down.

I quick to do her diaper change, I pull down her pajamas and take it off. I removed her wet diaper and put her legs up above her stomach and hold her feet in the air. Wiping her front to back not missing any spot. I wiped her private parts several times. I need to make sure she's clean. After waiting for few minutes to make sure she is dry I put a diaper under her bum and spread baby powder on her, securely taping the diaper on her hips and put her pajama pants back on.

"There you go sweet girl. We're all done." I said and claps at her and she claps with me as well. She's still in her younger head space.

This isn't the first time I take care of Aia in her younger headspace. Whenever Alice needs to run errands she always comes to ask me to look after the girl while she is gone. I remember the time that she was crying really hard. I picked her up, settled in my hip and bounced her. I was shocked because she was limpy and her head falls backward. Realizing she's in her infant headspace. I cradle her like a baby and put a pacifier in her mouth but she just spit it out.

She started to nuzzle in my chest and rooting for something. She cried when she never get what she is rooting for. I'm glad to see her bottle was already prepared and placed on the table. Alice knew she needed her bottle. I rub the nipple of the bottle to her lips where she opens up immediately and suck. I watch her as she feeds on her bottle and looks at her innocent eyes. As much as I wanted to give her my breast. It's not the right thing to do. I'm not her caregiver. I don't even know if she really wants it.

It's already 10 months now since I lost my baby Talie. When she was still with me, I was like a milk machine. I make milk enough to feed a triplets in a day. My milk is being donated each week to the hospital were I delivered my baby. A good friend is working there and saying I've been a really good help to the first time moms who can't produce breastmilk.