Mama Find Me

Chapter 18

Stella's POV

My heart is full and I can't contain the happiness I feel. I didn't expect that becoming her mama, officially, will let me experienced joy again. I never thought or even imagined that it will happen like this. I've been wanting to be her caregiver but I just don't know how will I be when I'm hesitating about the idea of asking Aia.

I picked her up and kisses her all over her face. She was giggling a bit and I love the sound of her little laughs. But as I smothering her face with my kisses when I noticed that she is hot. Not really hot but then the temperature she has right at this moment is warmer than the usual.

"Aia, you're hot." I suddenly stopped and said it to her. She also stopped giggling but still smiling looking at me then rub her eyes.

"You're too tired, Aren't you? I smiled back.

"Do you feel sick, sweetie?" Worriedly I asked her as she shakes her head no at me.

"Mama, ti-Ooooh-tiwed." She said as she yawned.

"Bed pease, " Looking at me with her still red tired-puffy-eyes. Poor little thing.

"Please tell mama if something hurts, alright sweetie?" I reminded and she just slow nod her head. Then point upstairs and she rub her eyes again. Surely she is just really tired. She had a long day anyway. It should have been fun but it ended not good.

"I know you're tired, sweetheart, but we need to get a quick bath." I said as I walked toward the staircase to go upstairs. Aia wrapped her arms around me and buried her face into my neck. I hold her weight from her bottom to make sure I hold her closer to mine as we walked upstairs.

I put her down on the side of the bed, though she whined and about to cry, I looked at her and reassured that I'll be quick. I prepare her bath and get back to her. She's looks really, really tired.

"Come on, sweetheart and have a quick bath." I said and picked her up and bring her inside the bathroom.

"Okay, you're bath is ready. I'll just be outside." As I try to put her down.

"Nuuuuu." She whined and squirmed in my hold.

"Why not? Sweetie, you have to take a bath." I told her as I put her down on her feet.

"Nu, mama baf." She exclaimed then points at me.

"You want me to help you take a bath?" I asked Aia and she nod her head.

"Oh... okay, that's fine." I started to undress her by taking off her shirt first. She put her hands on my shoulders for balance when I turn to taking off her pants. I pull down the pull up and throw it to the trash can. She made a grabby hands so then I picked her up and let her sit down on the tub.

I washed her hair and body quick. I can see her eyes gets droopy and I don't want her stay in the water that long because I can feel her body getting warmer. I wonder why she's never complaining about it. I took her out of the bath and wrapped her with the fluffy towel. Dried her quick. I lay her on the side of the bed and massage her body with a baby lotion while she sucked her two fingers. I get her pacifier and replaced her finger with it. She gave me a side smile.

I continued on getting her dress. I rolled her a little to her left side so I can put a cream on her butt quick then put a diaper under her bum before laying her on her back again. I put a little amount of baby power on her private part and securely diapered my baby. I dressed her in a new set of princess jammies. I picked her up to lay her down on the middle of her bed and tucked her in.

"Mama, tank chooo, " Aia said in a very tired voice with a pacifier in her mouth.

"You're welcome, baby girl." I responded to her and kissed her head

"Wan Ottie." She told me.

"What's Ottie sweet? I asked her back curiously.

"Ottie, mama?" the little girl said while rubbing her eyes.

"I don't know what's ottie baby, can you please tell mama, what's ottie?" I asked her again.

"Ottie, mama, Ottie!" She said in frustration and is about to cry as she points to wherever I think ottie is.

I looked where she's pointing at. It is her crib. I go there and see what is 'ottie' then I remember instantly when I saw the Otter stuffed toy.

"Oh yeah. Ottie! My bad, I'm sorry baby, Ottie is coming." I get it quick and give her the otter stuffed animal. She made grabby hands at it and hugs the toy tightly.

"Tank chu mama!" She said one more time.

"No worries, sweetie, get a good rest, okay?" Nodding her head and gave me a little smile. I kissed her head again and the little girl closes her tired eyes. I put her to sleep by rubbing my thumb gently on her forehead and especially between her eyes going down to her nose bridge. It always work with Talie so I hope it works with her too. To my surprise it did. She's out like a light in 10 minutes. With her snoring, I kissed her head one more time and left her on her baby room.

I heard my baby crying while I was changing to my nighties. I'm glad she has a baby monitor and I placed it on the bed side table. I hurry up getting dress and go to her baby room. I put my hand on her forehead to check. I think her temperature rises, the last time I checked it's 98.78 Fahrenheit. I get the thermo scan and put it in her ear. Just like what I thought her temperature rises to 101.3 Fahrenheit.

Before dinner time and that was about 6pm when I woke her up earlier. She was hot so I decided to give her a tylenol after her dinner. I made a chicken soup for her but she didn't eat that much. Well atleast she tried to eat few spoons when I feed her. Four hour had passed but the medicine didn't help. My baby is having fever now. I put a cooling patch on her forehead, I hope this help to get her temperature to cool down.

Her cries are heartbreaking, her lips quivering too. I checked her diaper and she is dry. I get on the bed and picked her up. I cradle her in my arms and give her a bottle. She ate very little earlier, I'm sure she must be so hungry. She's nuzzling at my breast. I give her a bottle and glad that she take it immediately and suck a few but only spit it out. I was shocked. I know she loves her bottle but I wonder why she wouldn't take it this time. She starts to root on my breast again and since I had my nighties on she can't latch on and she wails.

"Sweetheart, I can't give you my breast right now." I said in frustration.

"Here's your bottle." but she didn't take it still. My breast is now leaking, this is the first time again that happen to me after Talie's death. I think because my brain is telling me to feed her. But I can't we didn't talk about it yet. We didn't even have rules in the first place.

But what should I do? She continues to cry, and my breast is now having a letdown. My nighties is now soaking wet. My baby's little hand is holding on the neckline of the tiny cloth I wear. She's babbling 'ma ma ma' while crying so hard like she's begging.

"Aww sweetheart. What should I do with you?" She continues to cry and tried few times to latch on.

I took a deep breath. I kissed her head and take off my nighties. I hold her head towards my left breast and rub my nipple to her lips it took her few seconds before she latched on. I hissed at a little pain I felt when she sucked hard. The milk leaks on the side of her mouth. I fix her latch and she continues to suck fast on my breast. She's now looking at me.

"Gentle baby, it's not going anywhere. Mama's not going anywhere." I caresses her cheeks and she starts to suckle gently. I hold her tightly and I felt relax I as breastfeed her. I put few pillows at my back and lean and closed my eyes. I felt her hand goes over my left breast like she's holding it.

"No one will take it baby. It's all yours." I kissed her hand while looking at her innocent eyes.

Tears like water fall fell from my eyes and I whispered 'I love you, Mama's got you.'

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Hi Miloves, I'm sorry to keep you waiting. There's just a lot of things happened to me and my family.

Here's the moment we're all been waiting for. I'll do my best to post another chapter. I hope you guys like it. Please bear with me too. Thank you all so, so much.

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- Liszt xxx