Mama Find Me

Chapter 16

Aia's POV

"I-I'm sorry, I didn't knock before I come in." I was really embarrassed. I feel my cheeks gets really hot and I know it's so red. I should knock before walking in right? You so stupid!

I face about then opened the door, "I-I guess I ju-just wait for you downstairs." I said to Stella. And now you're stuttering. Come on.

"No, Aia stay here and wait for me. I'm about to finish pumping my breast." Stella called me and making me wait standing like a dead mice on the spot where I am.

"Come here, take a seat. I also done putting things in my bag so where ready to go after this." she explains to me while she check her purse and get another bag. What's that for?

After few minutes sitting on the vanity chair I try to talk but nothing comes out in my mouth. I can't even formulate a word.

"Uhm uhmmm." I can't think of the right word to ask. Her milk on the breast pump distracts me.

"Yes, Aia what is it?" She looks at me as she starts to remove the pump on her breast. She got a big and perky breast still though she has milk on it. I like it, not in a different way but I like it for comfort. I think that is the scent I've been breathing in whenever I get close to her I can't explain how it smell. It's so comforting. She smells like cherry with a hint of vanilla but not actually vanilla. I don't know, I bet whoever the baby who she breastfeeds loves her milk and is so lucky.

I feel jealous. I wish to be able to breastfeed too. I want mother's milk. I never had any before. My mom never breastfeed me when I was still young. I was taken care of by a nanny as early as 1 month old. I can't even remember if she ever hold me when I was still a baby.

"I didn't know you have a child. Where is the baby?" I asked her curiously. She smiled at me but there is sadness in her eyes.

"Yes, Baby Talie, but she's not with me anymore." she simply stated.

"Where is she?" I asked her again.

"I guess, Gods need another angel in heaven that's why They take her back so soon. Talie is so precious, Gods can't let her live on this earth." She said jokingly but you can hear the pain in her voice.

"Oh... I'm so sorry for your loss, Stella." I said with much sympathy while looking at her direction.

"But, but who will the drink the milk?" I asked again.

"I'm donating it to the hospital, sweetheart." Stella told me with a smile

I only nodded my head and I said to myself 'I wonder how it taste, Can I just have it?' stating in whisper.

"What was that sweetie?" Stella suddenly asked me with curiousness on her face.

"I-I said I wonder if we can go now?" I said lying to her.

"Oh sure, come on let's go!" She answered, walks towards at me then she offer her hand at me to hold.

We go downstairs together holding each other's hand. I wish this will never end. I wish she can be my caregiver. She makes me feel safe and loved. I'm scared to asked her to be my caregiver because she might not like to be my caregiver and stay away from me. Maybe she's being just real nice to me because she's uncle Ricky's secretary.

She goes to the kitchen to put the milk in the fridge and ask me to wait in the car. I really wonder how does it taste. I wanted to try it but If I will ask Stella what would she think of me?

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We arrived at the State fair right after it opened so theres only few people as of the moment. I'm super excited for this. It is my first time to go a fair. I never got chance before so now I'm overjoyed.