My prisoner

17 - Bright

I am really scare, even i am with phi joss i cant focus on him. I felt sorry for him and keep asking for forgiveness.
Do you need help bright, phi joss ask me. Maybe he notice a few of phi mile man following me. No phi, i am okay i reply to him. I am sorry for being so absent minded, i humbly said. No its okay, thanks for the lunch, so we cant go for movie today, he ask me again. Sorry phi joss,  i really cant. I need to go home, i said sincerely. Okay, may be next time, phi joss said. I just smile on that. After that phi joss escort me to my car. Thank you phi, i said and quickly leave the restaurant. On my way i found japanese restaurant and ask my driver to stop. I run to the restaurant and  buy a sushi set for my husband. I can feel a lot of people taking my picture and video. I just smile politely and run to my car as fast as i could. I love what we have now.
But today again i laugh at myself because i nearly forget who he is. No one can change within a few weeks. He may be sent me home after this and leave me alone again. I love to be here not only because of my husband. It because here i felt like a human not some doll who cant do anything. I was observe like animal because all the helper also afraid of their master. I dont have anyone who i can talk to. No one will smile or talk to me. All they do is serving me. I need to be here so that i can be sane. So as normal human being i felt happy when my husband treat me well till i almost forgot the real him. Today he remind me again that i dont have any right. Just like he said before, i dont have right to die. I really hope he forgive me this time. At first i want to beg him but at last i just give up and will just follow all his order.

At the terrace garden i love a couple of bird which caged here. I felt pity for them. They are in beautiful garden but cant fly freely. Everytime i see them i ask for forgiveness because i cant let them free. After a while phi mile pull me and hug me tight. I really dont understand him but all i can do is return his hug. At least here he dont treat me as play thing like 7 years ago. So i cant complaint much. I should be grateful.
I am sorry, its my habit, he said softly and kiss my head. I just smile and nod.
Let go it getting windy,  he said and bring me back to his penth house.
Lets rest today he said and hug me on the swing. Its really comfy and warm. I dont remember how i fall asleep and when i awake i already at his room.

I am getting ready for my asia tour. I hope i can still come back to this penth house. I look at my wedding ring. I never  see him wear it again after he leave me the second time. So i really prepare myself for everything.  What are you thinking about he ask me when i look dreaming. I smile to him and pack my bag again. You should wear thick close, its still cold there he said while looking at his phone. Dont go around without your team he said a bit firm.  Dont wear your ring he suddenly said. I am a bit fluster and look at him. Okay i said and quickly go into bathroom. I try to calm myself. I know he is being distance this few days. Maybe its already too much for him to have me here this long. I carefully put off my ring . I try hard to calm myself and refuse to cry. You already know this. Just be patient i talk to my self. I cant sent you to the airport tomorrow, i have important meeting he said and look at me. Again i nod. Get rest first you have long flight tomorrow he said. I just nod and look at my husband who are on call and leave our room. I wont cry, i know this is coming. I already prepare for this.

I dont know weather phi mile coming back or not. When i awake i cant see him. I quickly prepare to leave.  I call my manager and he already waiting for me.
After check in i and win sit next to each other and casually scrolling our phone.
This girl really cacth a big fish win suddenly said. She is so lucky win said again. She is beautiful, born in super rich family and now in relation with the richest man in thailand win said. That make me turn to him.  What do you mean i ask win. Look win show me a photo of my husband with a beautiful lady. They look so happy and very suitable to each other. Yeah they are beautiful couple i said. She is beautiful, but i think you are more beautiful win said and laugh. That statement make him receive a smack from me. Both of us laugh but deep inside i am hurting so much. Now i know why he ask me to not wear our wedding ring.

Its only 5 days trip. When we arrive at thailand and wait for my driver, i felt empty. I really dont know what to do. Lets go back to mansion i said and the driver look suprise. I just smile and close my eyes. Just like he said i am just a husband of convinience. I should back to my place. All the helper look suprise but quickly serving me. The mansion which  so quiet become lively . I am sorry, i slowly said. I really dont have place at anywhere. I just being a burden for everyone. Since the day win show me phi mile picture i never look for him, but still reply all his message and answer all his call. I really admire his determination to hurt me. I really wish he really forget about me like he always do.