My prisoner

19 - Bright

Cant he be more gentle . I curse him innerly. He now look so happy accompany me to soak in warm water with herbs. Honestly its not as bad as our first time after seperate for seven years. He is controlling himself and  more gentle this time. It just that he is the monster who like do it hard and hard to satisfy. I can see he is shaking when he try to stop after he do me for the third time. So i felt a lot better. I am thankful for him. I dont want to faint again.  Are you cursing me, he ask me and touch my shoulder. I quickly shake my head. No,i said.

Its nearly one year after he come back to my life. Until today he still a scary husband i have but also a loving person. Since the day he break me free from my debt he never hurt me again. He get me involve in his life more. I am getting closer to his friend and most importantly i start loving and accept him as who he are. I have to embrace that he is the mafia boss with big organization. What i expect from someone with such background. I am already happy if he come to me with no new injury or anger. I know he try his best to be gentleman. I dont know his real feeling but at least he start respecting my right and stop forcing me. I already free the bird at the terrace garden. I dont have so much that i want to do since i am just a simple guy.

Where are we going phi, i ask when i see all of his close friend and a few of his man are following behind our car. We will meet my dad, he said. I hold his hand and slowly hug him. I know his dad was murder so i felt sorry for him.
When we arrive i can see a large group of people waiting for us. I felt a bit scare. I never know he have this many people
All of them wearing a black suit and bow to us when we arrive. Then i see a familiar face that i know. Phi bucther come to us and hug both of us. After the memorial service, i walk to phi bucther and who quietly look at a grave. He look familiar. Do you remember my son, he ask me. I am not sure, but he look familiar, i said with sorry look. He is guarding you seven years ago, he said. I am sorry phi, for not remembering. I am really confuse and scare during that time, i said and pay my respect to phi bucther son. He was caught on the day they left your at the dark road, phi bucther said. They know, they cant protect you if they bring you together, phi bucther said. He must feel sorry for you. Until his last breath, he ask me to help you, phi bucther said again.  He and mile was haunted, and they lastly caught when his uncle betray him. Your father in law run to you instead of his son, because mile make him promise to safe you. After days of toture, they finally call your father in law and ask him to surender himself to the authority. With so much effort, we manage to save both of them but my son cant make it. He is bleeding too much for a few days. Then, mile volunteer to replace his dad, even his dad refuse his plan. That why, he was in prison for 7 years, phi bucther said again. I try hard to save him, but all the officer has been bribe. It take two years, for me to reach him in prison to inform his dad death, and from that day we work silently until he escape. I am sorry, i dont go to you before, because i know you are safer alone. You are the first person he ask when he is out of prison. Within an hour he found you easily because you become big star, he said and chukle. After his killing spree, he run to you and i believe he lost control he said again. I know when he distance himself even he so eager to see you before, phi bucther said.
He is rough man, but he love you. I can promise you that. You know our kind never broke our promise , phi butcher said. I smile on that. Dont be hard on your self. Dont be scare, he already wrapped around your finger, but always remember, dont try to make him angry. He is born and raise as mafia, so you must always know your limit, phi bucther add. Why are you telling me phi, i ask him. Because of my promise to you father in law and my son, he said. Your dad really like you. He wish you and mile happy life, he said and caress my hair. Go to your husband, his is getting impatient, phi bucther said and chuckle. Thank you phi,  i said and run to my husband. I hug him tight. What wrong kitten, he ask me worrily. I shook my head but keep hugging him.
I now can breath easily. I now can forget about that accident. He push me to safe me instead of killing me. This is the only reason , i dont surender myself fully to my husband.  I cant help but climb on my husband lap on our way home. I felt so overwelming.  What wrong kitten, he ask me and return my hug. I dont reply to him. I am surendering myself for you husband, i said in my heart and kiss him softly.