My prisoner

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I look at my new trophy that i just win tonight. Most popular award for 4 years already. I finally can relax a bit because i can support my family even i dont see them for 7 years. I just smile and look at all the award i recieved within this 4 years. Every of it mean sweat and blood for me. I slowly put my new trophy in the cupboard.

I walk to my big room which look so quiet and lonely. I dont know how long i will live like this. I will end all of my suffering and start a new life. I want to leave my past and start new. I believe nobody remember me now. I am just a small character in their life. Until today i close myself from the world. I am scare to walk alone and always have a nightmare. I look at the scar at my hand. After that night what leave with me is my scar. Why am i trapped in that 3 months moment. I wish i can die but god always  have his way. I cant even die even i want too.

Thanks to my partner win, he save me. He help me sincerely even he fail to make me open up to him regarding my problem. He know i am in deep trouble but he still agree to be my partner.  Desprately to save my family i finally agreed to become a celebrity even i swear i wont care about them again after that tragedy. I am so stupid that why i was used and bullied for a long time. After that tragedy i still cant ignore them. I am so scare when i will be seen in media and televisyen but after a year i know that no one remember or looking for me. I just leave alone in this big world. I have no one to share my sucess or failure. I just alone and i become a great loner.

Win are you coming or not, i ask my good friend win. He just nod and walk to a beautiful lady. Not again, i said and shook my head. I wish i can live like win, born in silver plate, have a happy family and debt free. Dont take me wrong, i manage to pay all my family debts years ago. I am financial free now but i am far from freedom.
"See you later" i read win message. Again i smile and leave him with the beauty like always.
I slowly walk to my manager and they ask where is my partner. He already left i said. When they ask me. I dont know i said like always. "Its clear now" i message win when i and my team already in our way to my next schedule.
Are you okay bright my manager ask.  I nod a bit but honestly i felt a bit uncomfortable and i dont know why.
Dont worry it just like your previous event my manager said. Is Tu already arrive, i ask my manager. She will be there with her manager, my manager reply. I nod and close my eyes to rest a bit. I have a brand TVC shooting today and now i am on my way to YSL new store opening. I was invited as influencer.

I can see how tweeter being crazy because of my schedule with TU. Some of my fans are angry and some of my fans are happy. I really cant satisfy all my fans wish so i walk and go with the flow. I just accept what coming to me and bravely face all the challenge. I have face more than that, so crying fan or haters just a small matter to me. I make a decision to start new life including i wont tied to anyone including my fans. I want to be free. I have it enough.
Are you okay phi, Tu ask me. I nod and smile. Lets go, dont worry. You are the most gorgeous girl tonight, i said and touch her hair softly. Thank you phi she said and walk in front of me. This is what i like the most about tu. She is brave and a fighter. Even she receive a lot of hates, she still smile and keep moving foward. I am so proud of her.

I walk closely with tu. We represent our company and we will do our best. I can see a few big name tonight and as the current top star i and tu receive so much attention.  The fans keep screaming . Both me and tu just doing all our job for tonight and leasurely talking with other artist. I suddenly felt i am being observe. I dont felt this way for a long time now.  What happen to me tonight. Are you okay phi, tu ask when i look a bit pale. I just a bit tired, i said and tu bring me to the chair. Thank you, i said. Both of us need to be profesional.  Just rest a bit, tu said and signal our manager. What happen they ask. Nothing i felt dizzy, i said. My manager immediately hand me a bottle of water and let me rest a bit. It just my imagination, i talk to myself . Dont be scare bright, i said to myself again. Its already over, i said. No one after you, you are safe, i keep talking to myself. Lets go, Tu said. The brand vip guest will be arrive at any moment, we need to be there, tu said. I nod and tu hold my arm and we walk gracefully to the main area. Both of us stand with the other influencer and wait for the brand vip and their guest.

They are here, tu said and i look up to see and getting ready for the casuality.
I look at the guest, I cant breath, i hold tu hand tightly. Phi, Tu call me, phi Tu scream and then i only can see black. I hope i really die this time.