I didn't think you cared - Tom Kaulitz

Protector

i wake up and i remember last night. Me and tom hugging, im laid next to him. He looks so sweet while he's sleeping, he looks harmless. But then i remember everything he's done and i know he's not harmless. He's hurt so many people, but why, WHY..

why am i falling for him?

i slowly get out of the bed seeing all the bruises on my body from being thrown around everywhere. i sit on the edge of the bed and i grab some of my concealer and start to cover them up. i don't like seeing them as they remind me of how he actually is a bad person. I put concealer on almost all of them on my legs and then i start to do my back, i lift my shirt. There's a big one on my back, getting worse every hour of the day. I cant really remember what it was from, or who. i can't reach it.

"need help with that?" A sleepy voice says, it's tom. He sounded so sweet when he said that, in such a caring tone , like he actually wants to help me feel better. "yes, please.." i say quietly as he sits behind me and grabs the concealer from my hands and tries as hard as he can to do a good job for me. His touch is rough. It hurts as he applies it. I wince a little and i know that he heard because he became gentle. After he finished i dropped my shirt back down.

"are you hungry?" tom says, definitely low. "no." i reply back to him. Still sat on the edge of the bed, not even looking at him. "okay, get in the shower." He says before getting changed and walking downstairs. I open the bathroom door and take off my clothes, placing them on the floor as i turn in the shower and wait for it to warm up before slowly stepping in. The hot water hitting my back, scrubbing myself down with a sponge, attempting to make myself feel clean. I'll never feel clean again.

after i'm finished in the shower i get changed, and go downstairs. "come on, we're going out." tom says as he grabs my arm and opens the door and then we sit in his car as he drives to a shopping mall. We get there, he takes me to a clothes store. "pick what you want." he says, sounding annoyed. i walk over and look at some clothes before all the lights switch off, it's completely dark in here now and no one can see a thing. "Tom?" i say, quietly.

"Alice? Alice. Where are you?" he says in a panicked voice. "I don't know." i say, i can hear him but he sounds far away. someone covers my mouth and hushes me. "alice?" tom says again, basically begging for me to say something. So he can follow my voice. I try talk, or let out any noise so he can realise what's going on. I let out a few muffled words before the hand presses harder against my mouth, restricting me from talking at all.