Song: Cherry by Lana Del Rey
/2/22
I had a rabbit. Her name was Phoebe. I named her after Phoebe from Friends because Phoebe was a pacifist and a white rabbit also seemed like a pacifist.
Zion had given it to me when he came home November. I did and did not want anything that had to do with him at the same time but it's not like I had a choice. The rabbit was cute.
Zion left early December, just like I knew he would. I wonder if things would've been different if Zion had stayed. The Zion I hate so much. I would've told him, I would've told him everything because get this. Zion–my dad? I hate him. I hate him so much I get triggered just by thinking about him but I also love him. I want to be like him, to have his approval, to make him proud. Whenever he's around I want to talk and talk and talk. I would tell him anything he wanted just to make him stay. He never does though.
Phoebe the Rabbit died today. She got shot while I was hanging out with Nick, blowing joints. I felt bad, really bad, seeing her body lying outside the front porch. I felt extremely bad knowing she died because of me. But I kept staring at her pure white fur stained with blood and you know what?
I freaking envied the damn rabbit.
I would give an arm and a leg to be in that position. Dead. Asleep. At peace.
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