Painful Secrets

Chapter 36

It was morning.

Felix walked down in the kitchen after brushing his teeth and taking a shower, in a plain white shirt and black shorts.

He entered the kitchen, catching sight of Hyunjin who was making himself a cup of coffee.

Felix smiled at him. "Good morning."

Being glad that Felix was finally talking to him, Hyunjin smiled back, "Good morning."

"So, what do you want for breakfast?" Felix asked.

"Anything is fine, honestly." Hyunjin answered.

"So, how about pancakes? I love pancakes." Felix said as he scurried off to make them.

Hyunjin just watched and admired like he always has. Felix looked so pretty. His blonde hair and blue eyes matched perfectly with his freckles. His small hands and figure looked so delicate and ethereal. Damn, Hyunjin loved him so much. If only he deserved to be loved by Felix, he wouldn't have to lock himself in his room, to keep the more beastly and animalistic side of him all to himself. It was like something he had to control all his life and only had a chance to let it out when he let out his anger and aggression on people that never ended up with good consequences. Of course, Hyunjin could never even think of harming Felix, but he was still afraid. Afraid that if he lost control of himself, he might do something that might hurt Felix, because of his lustful desires.

"Good morning, you guys." Jisung said as he walked in the kitchen with Seungmin behind him. "I smell pancakes."

"Yeah, I'm making them." Felix said, holding up his spatula. "Where is Jeongin? Isn't he with you?"

"I slept with Jisung last night so I just came from his room." Seungmin said. "Jeongin might still be asleep."

Felix raised his eyebrows. "You two slept together?"

"In a friendly way!" Jisung said. "Definitely not in a weird gay way!"

Felix smirked. "Okay, I believe you."

He then turned to Seungmin. "Also, when you go upstairs, can you ask Jeongin if he wants to watch a movie or something? He seemed a bit tensed last night so, I was wondering if-"

"No need to go into detail. I'll ask when we have time."

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It was afternoon.

Jeongin was inside Seungmin's room, just sitting on the bed, hugging his knees, having no idea on what to do.

The door opened and the one to come was Seungmin. "Hey, sweetie, you okay?" He asked, shutting the door once he stepped inside.

"I'm okay." Jeongin replied.

"You don't look like you're okay." Seungmin said as he sat next to Jeongin on his bed. "You're stressing yourself out too much. It's really affecting you. You barely come out of my room anymore."

"Because I don't know what to do, hyung." Jeongin said. "I want to leave but I don't want you to come with me. And you won't listen."

"Look, Jeongin," Seungmin said. "I don't mind if you leave. It's your choice. But what are you going to do out there by yourself? What if you get taken by your father? Or worse, what if some bastard tries to rape you again? You know that you can't handle it."

"I know," Jeongin said. "But, Minho hyung-"

"Will you forget about him and think about yourself? Jeongin, you don't have to please everyone. This is your life. You have every right to enjoy it and feel free. You yourself know what might happen to you if you go out there on your own. Yet you are still willing to go through that risk. Don't do that, Jeongin. You've already suffered so much."