Painful Secrets

Chapter 39

Seungmin walked downstairs into the kitchen.

The kitchen was empty and dark. Seungmin turned on the light as he sat down at the dining table, staring at the white wall in front of him.

He sighed, feeling exhausted. The past days have been awfully tiring because of how much quarrelling had been going on in the house. And frankly, Seungmin was sick of it.

Part of him was glad that Minho and Jeongin made up but the other part of him was a bit disappointed on how Jeongin forgave Minho so easily.

He had expected Jeongin to be angry at Minho for wanting him killed, to hold a grudge, maybe never wanting to see Minho again. Because that was how Seungmin felt.

He was angry at Minho for wanting Jeongin killed, he still held a grudge and he didn't want Jeongin to be around Minho. Who knew if Minho might hurt him again?

But, for some reason, he felt bad. Not for Jeongin, but for Minho.

He knew Minho was sorry for what he did and he could see how desperate he was to make Jeongin stay with him when Seungmin took him away and it made Seungmin feel bad. The only reason why he didn't stop Seungmin was because Minho was afraid. Afraid if Seungmin might do something. Seungmin remembered how he was ready to hit Minho when he yelled at him in Chan's office and threatened to take Jeongin away from him.

At that moment, Seungmin was lost in his anger, he didn't notice the tears in Minho's eyes. Minho wasn't a person who normally cried over small things like Jeongin does. Means what Seungmin said might have really hurt his feelings. Maybe, Minho was still up in his room, crying. Seungmin wanted to go up to the older's room and maybe, apologise for how harsh he was.

Seungmin didn't like to see people cry. He would feel very guilty if he ever made someone cry. He didn't want Minho to cry or fear him.

Maybe he wanted what Jeongin wanted. Seungmin wanted it all to be over.

"Seungmin?"

Seungmin snapped out his thoughts as he turned to see who spoke. Turns out, it was Jisung.

"Jisung-ah," The words came out dry and he seemed kinda glad that Jisung was here.

Jisung had always been a person Seungmin liked talking to. Jisung comforted him and made him feel loved. That night he had slept with Jisung and had felt so soothing and oddly satisfying. He wondered how euphoric it would be, if he got to sleep with Jisung every night, pulling his small figure in his arms, watching Jisung sleeping with his cheeks puffed out, his lips parted slightly.

"Are you feeling okay?" Jisung asked.

"Yeah," Seungmin replied as he kept staring at Jisung as if he were a statue.

"Can you stay here?" Seungmin said. "With me? For a while?"

Jisung smiled. "Sure."

Jisung walked over to Seungmin, sitting down next to him.

The first few minutes were a bit awkward since none of them were saying anything.

Seungmin cleared his throat, breaking the awkward silence. "So, how are you feeling?"

"I'm okay." Jisung said.

Seungmin could tell how Jisung was lying because of how downhearted and emotional he sounded, he highly doubted Jisung was 'okay'.

"Are you sure?"

Jisung bit his lip and he nodded.

"You're lying. Why are you lying?" Seungmin looked at Jisung who looked away.

"Jisung?"

There was no response and Seungmin was starting to get worried.

"Jisung-ah? What's wrong?" He asked, his voice soft and Seungmin swore he had never even called Jeongin this softly.

Jisung sniffled as he reached up his thumb to his eye, wiping away unfallen tears.

"Jisung?" Seungmin called as he gently placed his hand on Jisung's jaw and moved his head in his direction until he was looking straight into Jisung's teary eyes.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Seungmin cupped Jisung's cheek in his hand.

"I don't want you to leave, Seungmin." Jisung said, leaning into Seungmin's touch as if it was the last time Seungmin was touching him. "If you leave, things will never be the same as before, at least not for me."

Jisung looked at Seungmin, tears staining his cheeks. "Please, don't leave."

"Jisung-ah," Seungmin said sweetly as he wiped Jisung's tears with his thumbs. "I'm not going anywhere."

Jisung sniffled. "But, what about Jeongin?"

"He and Minho hyung made up. I don't think he wants to leave anymore." Seungmin pulled Jisung into a hug, petting the back of his head as the smaller rested his head on Seungmin's shoulder.

"You really aren't going?" Jisung asked.

"I'm not." Seungmin as he broke the hug. "I'm staying right here." With you.

Jisung smiled, his hand in Seungmin's.

"You know, Jeongin told me you have been acting strange for the past few days? That you haven't been quiet yourself." Seungmin said. "Was me leaving the reason?"

"I guess." Jisung said.

Seungmin smiled. "Do you want to watch a movie or something? Just you and me?"

Jisung smiled back. "Yeah, sure. But, aren't Felix and Jeongin in the PC room?"

"They should be done by now." Seungmin stood up as he offered Jisung a hand. "Come on."

Jisung took it as he got up.

Seungmin wrapped his arm around Jisung's shoulders as they both walked out of the kitchen and upstairs towards the PC room.

They were both near the door until they stopped, both in confusion and shock as they heard the sound of loud moaning. Really loud and deep moaning.

The voice was clearly Felix's, yet neither of them had ever heard Felix make such a sound again. For a minute, they thought maybe someone was watching porn.

And the door wasn't even locked, to begin with.

Seungmin opened the door, his arm still around Jisung to see the most unbelievable scene.

Felix sitting on Hyunjin's lap, his hands on Hyunjin's shoulders, Hyunjin had his hands on Felix's hips and they both were kissing. They seemed to be so lost in it that they didn't even notice when Seungmin had opened the door and came in.

Seungmin fake coughed purposely and loudly, causing both Felix and Hyunjin to pull away and turn their heads.

Felix looked rather calm but Hyunjin was all red.

"Having fun, huh?" Seungmin said.

"Um, yeah?" Felix said, confused if he was to answer or not. "Why are you here?"

"To watch a fucking movie, of course." Seungmin said. "What did you think? I came here to make out with Jisung?"

"I don't know, you tell me." Felix said, still sitting on Hyunjin's lap like it was a really normal place for him to be on.

"So, you two..." Jisung spoke, pointing at Hyunjin and Felix. "Are you going to stay here or what?"

"Um, actually we're gonna go." Felix said, getting off Hyunjin's lap before taking him by the hand. "Come on, let's go."

"Where are we going?" Hyunjin asked.

"To my room."