under the wraps

hope is always there

SHIV RATHORE: ok I will not take a step ahead but why do you wanna die

he replied but a slight solicitude is still clear in his voice

Vera: because it's so hard to live

she almost screamed at the top of her lungs, tears still sneaking their way out of her eyes and sliding on her cheeks, which were red, red as tomato, her neck was wet from the rain but mostly from her salty tears

SHIV RATHORE: don't you think you are the way too young to carry such an opinion, you should at least try to live, your life has just started and you want to end it like this, you should trust God and his process

he knew that kids these days are ready to give up on their life as soon as they are exposed to even the smallest obstacle, he deals with cases like this everyday, Vera's red face from anger was crystal clear even in dim street light and she yelled again

Vera: what do you know ha from the day I come to my senses I try every day to live but your god and his process they both don't work. I've tried so hard, suffer silently in the hope that maybe one day, one day your god will listen to me but he didn't, even he made it way too difficult for me to trust him

And now i am tired from trying everyday, every minute, every moment with every breath everything seems like a hard work for which I am inept

SHIV RATHORE: but you should still not loose hope

he urged in a pleading voice

Vera: what hope haan there is no place of this word in my life, every day my heart and chest is drowned in immense pain as if someone had made several cuts in it with a knife

Shiv Rathore: listen I really don't know what happened with you that makes you hate your life this much but if you want to die why now, why have you lived so many years, if you wanted to give up you should have done it earlier rather then now, if you had died earlier you would not have suffered this much all pain would have vanished earlier

He said while slowly approaching towards her, she was still standing on the edge of the bridge and shiv rathore was fully drenched by now, but he still crept his ways to her

Vera: that....that...me

She said while struggling with her words and looking here and there as if she don't have an answer her expressions change from anger to a confused state

Shiv rahtore: i tell you why , because you had a hope , but can you tell me what made you hope that everything will be ok one day? If your life was that mess can you tell what made you hope?

he was still crept towards her, but confused and engaged her with his constant questions

Vera: that that..

She was still lost for words and didn't notice him approaching towards her, he finally reached to her and pulled her back with incensed jerking

Shiv rathore: because you had hope that one day everything will be alright but you had hoped on the wrong person you had expectations from the wrong person, you misconstrue it , everything

Vera: means

She was looking so innocent and her face and eye were all red and she was shivering from being drenched and the cold breeze on the bridge was making it worst

Shiv rathore: you should have hope but not on god or on people you should have hope in yourself, your abilities, your patience god loves everyone with his 100%, and the thing which you are already getting 100% you can't get it more than that

Vera: but god never loved or helped me

she replied tears still constantly sliding down from her eyes to her cheeks

Shiv rathore: your every body part is working finely and the most important you are still alive you know how much people in this world want what you have, some people are born blind, or some lose their eyesight at a very young age, some are born disable and sometimes people lose their body parts in an accident but they have to live they can't just die and you, you are alright from head to toe, if suicide can put your problems to an end that easily India wouldn't be having this much population

Vera: so what should i do?

Shiv rathore: just form yourself kid, and you know hope is always there we sometimes just lost sight of it. And if you have a problem form your life change it, no one will change it for you

Vera: and what if I can't find one

came out of her mouth in a stuttering voice

Shiv Rathore: then create one

Present time

Vera: meeting with baba was a turning point of my life , when i thought i was left alone in this world and i have no one then he teach me that i am solely sufficient and i want to tell this beautiful thing to everyone present here that never loose hope because hope is always there sometimes you just lost sight of it

Everyone appreciate her speech with huge round of applause and she simply welcome it with a smile . after few hours fucntion got over an she was staning with her baba at parking lot of NGO

Vera: Ok baba now its time for me to leave, its getting way too late

Baba : ok beta now when will you come again?

Vera : whenever you will miss me , ok now no more emotional blackmiling final bye

She said and after giving a hug to him she twist her heels and starts walking towards her car, when her baba said

Baba : vera won't you see your father before leaving , after all he is your biological father

She freeze right where she was her expression change form being happy to being cold . she turns back and laook at her baba

Vera: my father is dead baba