so before we go in, pls take a deep breath and then slowly let it out
this is where my addiction began.. along with all self doubt.
what you're about to see will make your heart want to bleed
pain pills took me down a road I never intended to see.
there wasn't much I wouldn't do just to get high
I'm not proud, but I did what I did, just to get by.
I've literally asked myself the lonely question of "why"
but I never get an explanation so I'm doing all this to try
to try to figure out what is left of me, inside.
once I open this door, you'll understand just what I mean..
pls don't form an opinion, it's not as bad as it seems
although, I gave up on everything else, I haven't given up on me.
I slowly turn the knob, not knowing who will still remain.. I walk inside slowly, proud somewhat of who I've became. it's hard to be proud of yourself tho when you still have so much shame
even harder when you're completely the one to blame.
I stand there naked, completely stripped, as everyone knows my name...
I'm not looking for your sympathy, I'm just looking to get rid of the pain
and finally be able to stop living in my past because the future has much more to gain.
SNLpoetry
11/2021
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