Fear; the only thing that seems to never leave me.
If left in this misery, I cannot promise tomorrow I will see
It's the thought of nothing loving me but me.
It's the will to fight that I can no longer see.
I dig deep to find anything to cling to.
Everytime I do, my thoughts come back to you.
My one true love; my precious child, that is you!
I carry around this shame, yes it's true.
I can't help feeling like I failed you!
When you came into this world, you gave my life meaning. Since the day you went to live with your dad, my life's been constantly screaming! My mind keeps re-watching you leaving and so my heart; it just won't stop bleeding.
It isn't your fault that I need you to complete me.
It's all my fault. I wasn't there when you were needing a mom, at least one who was achieving. But I can promise you this this very evening, youve got me for the long haul, with all my being!
I'll never leave your side again, as long as I'm breathing!
Your heart, I'm always keeping!
That's what gets me through my weeping.
These hurdles that keep coming, I'll just keep leaping! So u never have to watch me leaving!
Like when I had to watch you.
I'll never forget the moment I knew
That I needed to work on me, so that you could be the best you.
It just hurt to know, you didn't need me too.
But now that I'm stronger, I actually see the truth
There was nothing that anyone could do
It was a fight inside only I could get through
And thank you God for the final crew.
My ride or die, just me and you!!
SNLpoetry
12/2021
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