Black And White

Goodbye.

I never love and this is why,
Because I hate saying goodbye.
I hate that salty taste of tears.
I hate that feeling of emptiness,
Yet it's a burning pain that doesn't go away.

I hate leaving and I hate being left.
I hate that it always looks easy, even if it's killing you.
I hate how I can never tell anyone.
I hate how I have to hide it and pretend I'm okay.

I hate the tons of makeup and the hair so high,
Just to hide what lives inside.
I hate love so damn much,
But I find myself wanting it every time.
I hate goodbyes, yet I crave hellos.

I guess that's what broke me most,
The way you said hello in such a memorable way,
And goodbye had come and gone,
Yet never once had it been said.

{ 2017 }