you and me, me and you

word vomit

"Oh my god" Bella said through laughter, "I've never seen you like this"
"What do you meannnn" I whined from the backseat of the uber
They kept giggling at me, putting their arm around me and putting my hair behind my ear
"I just-" I held the word vomit back in my throat. If I said I love you drunk, they'd think I was lying. Or joking. I squinted and I thought about what I could say other than I love you.
"I just think you're so cute" I smiled with closed eyes. I leaned in for a drunken kiss, and got one.
"Mm, alcohol breath" they laughed
"I'm so sorryyy" I winged, "I just like your face so much and you make me happy and want to cry like I'm happy" I couldn't stop the words from falling out of my mouth, all over Bella's lap and the black leather seat of the Uber.
"You make me happy too, Mara"
"Hm, I need a nickname for you"
"A nickname you say"
"Yes! You call me Mara but you can't really shorten Bella can you. Bell. Ella. No. La? Lalalala?"
They scoffed "Lalalala?"
"No I don't like that one"
"Oh, sorry"
"No it's okay. Hm. What is you favourite food?"
"Cornflakes and orange juice"
"SHH! shut your mouth. Orange juice boy. Okay. Bellie Wellie. Nuh uh"
"Nuh uh?"
"I'm going to start naming them off and you say when you like it Okay? Bella-bug, Bella-cakes, Bella-nova, Bella-bear? Bella-bug. Nothin? Bellabob"
"Hmm, I'm not sure but we're almost at the hotel"
"Okay well we still have to discuss this when we get there in the room"
"You should take a shower it'll sober you up"
"You take a shower"
"No you"
"We"
"What?"
"Bella-poop, Bels, Belle, Bell ring ring. I don't knowwww Bellaaaaa"
"You'll figure something out darling, come
on were here"
"Okay" Bella opened my door for me and my bare feet hit the cold cement, I had taken my shoes off.
"Thank you Mr. Uber driver, text Bella if you think of a nickname for them"
"Okay okay get inside, thank you though mr uber driver"
"No problem, have a nice night" He said as he drove off

"Okay, you warm enough?" Bella asked me
"Ummm I'm more than warm, I- Ooh! I said pointing to my reflection in a glass window
we passed, "I'm hot, like sooo hot and sooo sexy like wow," my brain was sobering up but my mouth wasn't, and my brain couldn't keep
up with my mouth, "like don't you think?"
"Yes yes yes, cmon get in the elevator"
"Did you say you think I am hot?"
"Yeah"
"Gosh, I'm actually IN a relationship"
"Oh sorry, sorry I didn't know. What's their name?"
"Bella, and yeah they're like really hot. and they will come beat you up"
"Oh, I'm so sorry I'll leave you alone- MARA!! Where have you been!- Who is this?" They said, switching places. 
I put my hands over my mouth in sarcastic shock and gasped
"Hey don't even mess with my girlfriend I will beat you up I am Bella"
I gasped even louder as the elevator door dinged
"Ugh. Lets go babe" they said jokingly
and we laughed on our way back to the room. The door clicked open with the room key and we walked in and fell on the bed.
"Okay, I'm gonna shower now" I grunted. I got up and walked towards the bathroom, taking my shirt off whilst walking to the bathroom door,
"Oh weren't we gonna shower?" 
"Shh" I said closing the bathroom door.

I turned the shower on and took off my clothes, letting the steaming hot water cover my skin. I closed my eyes and i felt the world spin around me. wow ok it was really spinning. okay really really spinning. My body fell against the side of the shower wall as my arm bashed into it,
"FUCK!!," I sighed "oww" I said drunkenly defeated. Bella pushed open the door to the bathroom and I immediately grabbed the shower curtain and swung it closed
"Are you okay jesus?"
"BELLA i am NAKED"
"Sorry sorry I was just making sure you're okay"
"I hit my arm" I said with a sad voice
"Let me see it"
I stuck my arm out from the shower and made a sulkish sound
"Oh it's okay, it's just a little red. Does it hurt?"
"Yeah"
"Okay, get out of the shower and I'll put some ice on it"
"Okay but you have to get out because i'm naked remember"
"Yes, I'm getting out" They said holding back laughs and closed the door.

I stepped out of the shower and wrapped myself in a towel. I left the bathroom to find Bella sat on the edge of the bed on their phone, I put my arm i front of them, sulking. They gasped sarcastically,
"Oh my gosh!" They gasped jokingly, "Guess we have to cut it off!"
"Bellaaaa nooooo, that's a dad joke"
"Sorry, sit down i'll get ice"
I sat down on the edge of the bed as Bella opened the freezer and put cubes of ice in a hand towel, wrapping them up. They placed the ice on the red bit of my arm,
"Feel better?" They said softly. It made me get butterflies
"Yes"
"Good" then they kissed me on the cheek, then my shoulder, the skin where they kissed felt warm and goosebump-y. I looked up at them, and they were already staring at me. Drunken me smashed my lips into theirs without thinking, they kissed back and they tasted sweet. I bet I tasted like a rum and coke, though they seemed to like that as they grabbed my waist over the towel with one hand, pressing their lips harder into mine. I pushed back, grabbing their face and sliding my hand to the back of their neck, taking their hair in my hand. I stopped myself from doing anything weird and stupid drunk, I breathed in sharply and pushed myself away.
"I need to get dressed"
"Oh" they laughed "Okay, weirdo- wait let me see your arm"
I took the ice off my arm and showed them, the red mark was barely there anymore.
"All gone!" They said kissing the spot where the mark was. I smiled warmly and got up to get pyjamas, on which i chose to wear boxers and an oversized shirt, it was cold but we had heating, and drinking makes me feel hot. Temperature wise. and I guess self confidence wise too.

I took the clothes into the bathroom and changed, dumping the towel into the basket and brushing my teeth. I walked back out to find Bella lying in bed with the lamp on. I climbed in behind them and wrapped my arms around their waist. I turned the lamp off and they sighed,
"Let's do something tomorrow"
"Mmh? Like what?" I asked
"Go on a little hike or something"
"Sure" I said with a smile
I kissed the back of their neck as they reached to my hand that was on their waist and held it,
"Goodnight Bella"
"Goodnight darling" they said as they gripped my hand harder.

What I really wanted to say was "Goodnight darling, I love you". I'll punch myself in the gut  tomorrow morning for not saying it.