you and me, me and you

You're my Lobster

☾irl: amaras perspective☽

I woke up and  for once I was excited to hear the dinging of my alarm, the sweet sweet repeated ringing. I graciously hopped up, my hair was a rat's nest and my eyes were puffy. I went to my bathroom and scrubbed my face clean and put my hair into a braid. I had told myself I was going to let myself feel whatever. I needed to be excited about something, someone. I couldn't be just friends with a horse forever. I needed to let myself be friendly. Even if I did like Bella, it wasn't like I was going to tell her. I had no need to, I was only going to know her for a few months, and even if I did tell her, where would it go? No where. I was just going to let myself like her. I like her. With my decision, I picked out my favourite pair of riding pants. They were for performance, but I wanted to look nice. The pants I had picked were a cream, off-white colour with a brown seat. "Just to impress you", Bella's voice rung in my ears. Just to impress her, I thought as I pulled my shoes on and grabbed my car keys. I was happy today. I left the house with a beam of a smile on my face, I felt jittery and good about what was going to happen today. 

I got into my car and drove with my thoughts at the front of my mind. Everything about Bella, even some things about Zana and Emma. I realised driving to work that I didn't need them in the first place, I barely even had them. My life hadn't gone through much of a change since they stopped talking to me. I shouldn't have slapped Zana in the face, but that was parting gift from me. I did feel bad for Emma, she hadn't done much wrong. She didn't entirely know what she was doing. But I was pulled away from those thoughts by a buzz from my phone as I was at a red light. It was Bella.

                                                                                         bella :)

bella :)

hi cowgirl, u coming in today? cant wait to see u 🙃

                                                                                                                      me

                                         yes! im on my way there, see u soon xoxo

I ended up driving to work with a smile plastered to my face. Today is going to be good. I got out of the car, still smiling. I ran up to the stables just as everyone was leading the horses into the floats. I was rushed to get to the set and see her. I was excited to be happy. I very much carelessly   shoved whatever I needed in the float and jumped in the passenger seat with shaking hands. Xavier noticed very quickly as I was off to talk about how excited I was to go to the set today. 

"Yesterday was so much fun, Im so excited for today." 

"Hm yeah" said Xavier, he was focused on the road

"Yeah, I should come up with a plan for today"

"What kind of plan?"

"Like what should I teach her?"

"Who?"

"The girl I'm teaching" 

"Oh, what's her name again?"

"Bella" I was quick to answer, "Isn't she- it pretty, isn't her name very nice" I dont think I saved myself very well there

"She's not exactly my type, seems like yours?"

"No" I said, Xavier chuckled a laugh of disbelief, "Back to the plan, what should I teach her?"

"No idea Mara" He wasn't paying attention again. That was fine, gave me more time to dwell in my own thoughts.