"ME" The Story of Lyric Rayne

First Kiss

                October 23, 2013

Dear Journal,

The strangest thing is going on in my heart right now, I think I am sick or something. Ever since Nix tried to kiss me I can't sleep, eat, or even breathe. Every time he is around my heart wants to beat out of my chest. Is this even normal? Why am I feeling this way? I hate this feeling. You don't think I like him? Have a crush on my best friend... no I cannot do that. That's crazy, I am just over reacting I don't like Nix. Come'on Lyric get your crap together.

Lyric

(Texting)

Nix- I am gonna break up with Lilly today.

Me- Good for you! How you going to do it?

Nix- Probably over text

Me-Wow that's just plain out cruel

Nix- Okay fine Sherlock got any brilliant ideas?

Me-Nah not really, I think this one is all on you. I don't want to be apart anymore.

 

 

I sat at the dinner table picking at my pasta. I pushed aside the noodles on the tomato sauce. My mind was so overwhelmed with my clouded thoughts.

'' Lyric, is everything okay?'' My dad asked me and I lifted up my head.

'' Huh.'' I say and my sister gives me a look so did my dad. '' Oh I am fine.'' I finally response. I could not eat, I had too much on my mind.

'' May I be excused.'' I ask permission to leave. I take my plate into the kitchen, rinse it off and head to my room. I took off my clothes and walked to the bathroom turning on the shower.

I blasted music super loud, I had to drain out my thoughts with music. The question on my mind is did I really like Nixxon? I guess once Lilly was out of the picture I realized this whole time I have had a small crush on him. But it's tiny, nothing to worry about right? My phone started to ring, I hurried and turned off the water and answered the call.

'' Lyric can I come over please.'' Nixxon ask desperately.

'' Ya, of course. When?'' I say into the phone to Nix

'' Now dumbo.'' Nix says back to me. I roll my eyes and say goodbye to him. I dry myself off and change into clothes. Just leaving my wet hair alone.

'' Dad, Nixxon is coming over for a few hours.'' I yell down to my dad.

'' Ok!'' He yells in response.

20 minutes later I heard a knock on the door. I ran to the door swinging it open.

'' Hey.'' Nix tells me

'' Bon Jour.'' I smirk to him. '' Come on in.'' I say to him.

'' It's really nice outside do you want to sit on the grass?'' He asks me, I nod and grab a sweatshirt. The sun began to go down slowly which made the most spectacular sunset. I lay down on the grass Nix lays right next to me, we stare into the sky.

'' Its gorgeous.'' I sigh.

'' Yes it is.'' He says back to me. I look over at him our eyes meet again. We feel so close, my heart began to race again. Smile and then look back at the sky.

'' So did you need to tell me something?'' I ask Nix he sits there in silence. ''What happened?''

'' Lyric, I just want to watch a sunset with my best friend.'' He whispers to me, and reaches to find my hand. His hand touches my thigh and our fingers interlock. Oh gosh darn' it my heart continued to race. I probably was blushing so much. But the moment was perfect.

Once again our eyes meet again. He leans in closer and closer. I felt my body moving in as well. What was I doing? I just let it happen, centimeters between our lips. I couldn't breathe at this moment. All I could think about was if it was really going to happen. Nix takes the risk and leans in the extra centimeter of distance between us. The feeling of his lips touches mine. I flutter my eyes close, not sure what is going on. But Nix dances with my lips like the leader in a dance. I let him direct me, I feel his hand crawl on to my face and he rubs his fingers in my hair. Then I slowly back away but not too far away. We stare into each other's eyes, not saying a word. I just had my first kiss... my first kiss.. with my best friend.  All I wanted was to say wow.