"ME" The Story of Lyric Rayne

The Text Message

I want to scream at the top of my lungs. Wanting the echo of my voice travel through the line to the ear of the listener.

I don't say any words, I physically and mentally can't handle this anymore. I no longer need this boulder and I need to choose what to do with my life rather than living for this false realization.

'' You chose your path, hope your happy with it.'' I say to the other line waiting inpatient for the response that could change things but I hear nothing. Absolute painful silence that could soon would cut my ears.

'' She told you didn't she..'' I hear the voice of the be trader and it is not pleasing to my ears. I curse under my breath I am done, like I said I can't take this anymore. But our 'conversation' (which was only a few words exchanged) was soon brought to an end when I hear two people, I assume its his parents and they continue to yell at each other. Throwing bombs with every word. I hear Nix's heavy breathing and the quelling still goes on.

'' Listen I have to go.'' I hear the shake of his voice and that's what brought a terrifying thought through my mind.

'' Is everything okay?'' I say and I know he is probably incredible confused by my change of attitude towards the unseen argument.

'' Goodbye Lyric.'' I hear the phone click off and I still hear the pounding of my chest pounding through my brain and out my ears.

Xavier- Mind if I drive by to pick you up?

I text back immediately and in the next ten minutes I hear a honk outside my house. Dashing for the door, I stop at the front door holding it from closing with my foot.

'' Dad I am going to Flora's.'' I scream to him wherever he was, next thing I know he appears from the kitchen strolling towards me with his arms crossed across his infirm body.

'' Hold up Missy, you have homework no going out.'' Really Dad of all the times I can't go got I actually want to go out. Now that is rare.

'' Um, but I thought you wanted me to make friends, so I am almost 100% sure thats what I am doing.'' I say, thinking about trying out that rebellious, adventures girl I know I have deep down.

'' Bye.'' I yell and dash to the yellow jeep parked in the driveway of my house. I hop in yelling GO! Xavier slams on the gas.

'' Lyric!'' My dad screams out after me. I felt the rush through my veins. Yah, it wasn't that crazy, its not like i am sneaking out to go to a party. I am literally sneaking out to see a marvel movie, now you don't hear that every day.

'' Wow what was that?'' Xavier says as the wind blows through both our hair and clothes.

'' Eh you know the casual movie sneak out.''

'' I would call that the casual movie dash out. I mean lad you got some legs like the flash.'' I giggle ya whatever I want to say, but the words don't leave my lips.

We walk through the door and we hear a noise in the basement. Following the noise we find our selfs looking at about 6 other people all sitting on the floor with blankets.

'' About time you got here man.'' I very tall guy walks up and high fives Xavier. '' I don't think I have met you Cobbler, Who might this be?'' He shakes my hand and I tell him my name. The guy winks at Xavier and I see the blusher get redder and redder like he had been in the sun for a life time.

'' Lets go sit down.'' I say and we both sit down as Flora pops in the movie.

'' Why did you get so red back there?''

'' Um, no reason.'' He lies through his teeth.

'' Right..'' I roll my tired eyes and punch him in the arm gently.

Dear Journal,                                                                                                                     December 10, 2013

I can't believe it is already December, which means Christmas time. My favorite time of the year. Sadly I am not feeling jolly at all during this glorious holiday, I know it wont snow. That's one thing I miss the most is the feel of snow against my cheek. The skin dancing with icicles.

Nix and I haven't talked and I am trying really hard to not care, but deep down it is slowly killing me. I feel like something is really wrong and he won't tell me. I know we are in a fight but if there is something seriously wrong he needs to tell me. I am scared.. I am frightened.. I am terrified.. This feeling haunts me every day and every night.

What happens now?

What do I do now?

Do I choose to forgive?

Or forget?

Lyric

I get up from the counter in the kitchen, I snatch my backpack from the counter, hoping in my dad's car waiting for him to drive me to school.

That's when I got the text message from Nix.

Nix- I love you, the memory of you will live in my head, dead or alive.

What did this mean? I swear my heart drops to my stomach the beating of my pulse speeds up.

Dead or Alive?