It's been 8 months since Asher's death, and I miss him, I can't even go to bed without fucking crying myself to sleep.
I miss him so much, why did he die on me knowing there would be an effect, did he want to die? Oh, I can't stop thinking about him.
I started to cry, I sunk into my bed, flooding my pillow with tears, I couldn't stop crying and it took me hours to fall asleep.
Until I hear a knock on my door, "Whos that?", I ask with a moppy voice, "it's Elena", I hear through the door, I quickly wipe my eyes to get the teary look away.
I get up to open the door for her, "I heard crying coming from your room", she says, "oh don't worry I'm fine", I smile brightly, she nods and goes back to her room.
I close my door and lay on my bed, why do I cry when crying won't bring him back, stupid me..
*In the morning*
When I wake up and go down stairs to make myself breakfast, when I'm done I get a drink from the fridge and go upstairs to eat my food.
Not much stuff happened today we just relaxed, did a movie night, in the living room.
It was fun, it made me forget about everything, I haven't had this kind of fun before when I was a kid, everything was boring and unfun.
Never knew that life could be fun, I thought life would always be boring and tiring, but I guess I was wrong.
We watch a horror movie, there were jumpscares after jumpscares, a few got me but Elena was the person who was the most scared.
It was kinda funny to watch her get scared, I laughed a little, and the others laughed at her too.
Once the movie finished we all went to bed, I didn't cry because I was happy, not from his death, it was tonight that made me happy.
*in the morning*
I woke up, with a lot of energy, and happiness I just had to keep myself from thinking of him, the day went with happiness
Everything was fine and fun, we all went out to the park and acted like little kids, I didn't play in the park because my little me I never had fun, and as a kid, I found the park kind of colorful not as fun.
There are more colors then places to play, it's supposed to be colorful so kids can get attracted to them and attached to it.
And when it's time to go some kids make a fuss about not wanting to leave or give me a little more time and then they want to leave.
I just sat there, while they acted like kids, I scroll through my phone to pass the time so i didnt get bored.
*some time later*
it was starting to get dark so i told the others that we gotta leave, they all made a fuss, just like kids would.
I didn't care about their fussing so I just told them that we are going home and that's it, we get into the car, and Anxo drives us home.
When we arrived home we all go to our room because it was late out and some people were exhausted.
*In the morning*
in the morning, I didn't feel like getting out of bed but I had to, I need to eat something since I'm hungry, so I go downstairs to make some stuff
When I finish making my food I go upstairs to eat as usual, and the same thing that happens in the morning.
When I finish eating, I go downstairs, to watch some tv, while watching tv anxo tells me that a mafia ball is being kept, every mafia is invited.
I was confused because I had no one to dance with and Kenji is in love with someone else and he won't tell me their name.
But I couldn't reject it I wanna have fun in my life instead of griefing over his death, it was happening tomorrow so me and elena had to go pick out a great dress
*they went to the dress shop*
me and elena found the most best and fanciest dress, i got a red dress that had a side slit -
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and elena had a sparkly blue dress with both side slit -
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we were both excited, it costed much but im a mafia boss, i can afford anything!
we bought the dresses and left the store, and went home, anxo and kenji had there suits ready, elena and anxo were matching, how cute!!
when we got home we put our dresses away, getting ready for tomorrow when the mafia ball was being kept.
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