Hard to love (ChaeSoo Fanfiction)

Chapter 25 - Farewell

For the past couple of days, I've been thinking about whether she would really come or not. After all, our last conversation wasn't the most uplifting one. And yet, here she was, as promised.

Kim Jisoo, in the flesh. Guess she was right about J not caring about me. Fuck, I was so stupid. Stupid, for putting my trust into that woman. And stupid for having such thoughts when I was supposed to pour all my energy into my vocal cords.

Don't be a little crybaby. There is still time, maybe she is still coming.

Right, I just had to keep going. The show must go on, right? And so it began. The first line, an all time favorite of my fans.

"My life's been magic, seems fantastic."

Then, a short pause so the audience could take in this one line, announcing which was about to come next.

"I used to have a hole in the wall with a mattress."

Another pause, the crowd went wild. And of course, they would sing along each and every word.

"Funny when you want it, suddenly you have it
You find out that your gold's just plastic."

This is what I've been living for, this is what I missed so much. To sing for all these people, and also have them sing with me. And that they did, all of them. From the very last row, all the way to the front where my sister, singing along as well as Lisa and Jennie. Just one person was there that didn't sing along. Jisoo. Instead of singing, or cheering, or making any noise for that matter, she simply smiled at me. She smiled at me like a proud mother, but there was also something else.

"EVERYTHING I NEED IS ON THE GROUND!"

By the time I finished the first song, all the nervousness and anxiety has fallen off of me. This was just me, doing what I did best and as soon as the rust fell off, it was just as much second nature to me as it was ten years ago. I smoothly transitioned into the next song, a happier song called "New Dawn", which circled around recovering from a lost love and how to have fun again. And boy, did the crowd have fun when the end of the song came and everyone started to dance. And yes, everyone. After that song, it was time for a little break.

"Thank you guys, thank you. I sincerely mean it, from the bottom of my heart." I spoke into the mic, then it was time for a pause while I waited for the cheers to die down. Once they did, I continued. "I wanna be honest with you, my last concert was quite a while ago, so I feared that I would be a bit.. rusty. But luckily, I am not and from the looks of it, neither are you." Again, a wave of cheers burst through the arena with one girl in the third row screaming "I love you Rosie!" "I love you too, beautiful stranger." I replied, making up for a clip that would certainly spread through all of social media. "You guys have so much energy tonight, I absolutely love it. However, I highly recommend that you don't spend all your energy all at once, because we are just. Getting. STARTED!"

Ninety minutes have passed, and I was still going strong. As I mentioned earlier, it has been a while since I performed in front of an audience and it made me almost forget what made me fall in love with all of this in the first place. And the cheers that came before and after every song refilled my batteries instantly, making me feel like I could go all night. But sadly, all good things had to come to and end, and so it was time for the final song. Originally, I wanted to finish off the concert with a song I just wrote very recently. Hell, J even helped me with some of the lyrics and I told her, the final version of the song would be the ending to the concert. Speaking of J, she was still nowhere to be seen. I checked every row, every corner, just in case she was somewhere else. But I had to accept, wherever she was, she was not here.